However, I think she knows that. it's one of the many reasons it took her this long to really say, "I love her." With the age gap (It being weird) and her being a "bad influence," she felt guilty and, in her words, didn’t want to ruin doyeon's life more than she already had, so she pushes her away and says how she only used her. But after all that, selfish or not, she still fought for her and realized that she loved Doyeon. That there is no world where she could live without her. I find it quite interesting; it's a lot of psychological turmoil, which gives it a sense of realism, but idk.
Damn right
I feel like all she’s done is be a bad influence for doyeon and I feel like if they never met doyeon would be in a much better place. Also! The age gap in itself is a bit weird with the fact that doyeon was so little when she met jinjoo. Even though they were both adults (I think) when they got together and stuff I still hate the whole dynamic. I don’t care if it’s toxic Yuri I hate jinjoo（￣へ￣）