Okay this is gonna be long peeps! I know this is not reddit or smth but it’s been a whil...

Okay this is gonna be long peeps! I know this is not reddit or smth but it’s been a while and mangago was literally my whole life! But recently I thought I found the man of my life so Ive been hella busy with this man and literally it’s been months since I open mangago. I miss this website so much so im here to spill the tea. The thing is this man is not the love of my life like id imagined. He talks to a lot of girls online, hasn’t moved on from her ex for 2 years, and has a lot of icks and red flags but im like who cares “ill do it for the plot”. But damn i started to get attached, he was my first in everything! I knew he talks to other girls while we’re in a “situantionship”, he denied being in contact with her ex but i knew they still kept in touch because theyre co-parenting their cats. We dont talk a lot in texts, we dont call each other either prolly once a week. I dont make the first moves because i want to at least save that dignity for myself. We agreed in casual relationships, so i understand not being exclusive and committing. But this damn guy! Brought me to his house and introduced me as his gf and now im hella confused. He doesn’t even want to come to my house anymore because he’s embarrassed ever since the people found out that we had a thing..btw this guy is a friend of my older brother. So why tf would he even introduced me as his gf and give me a freaking ring? Though i feel like it’s all for show cuz he prolly thinks im crazy about him. The last straw was when i went to his room and saw the notes on his computer. It was a list of things of what he wants to do and talk about with me. Like; talk about sex, make song playlists together, talk about the future, picture of my childhood, etc… It was hella weird there were other things too i just forgot but all i remember thinking was that “that was such a pyscho move” lol is it? Or is that normal for guys to do? Anyways after that I really want to be alone for the meantime and think about all my decisions in life. I believe those lists are prolly what he does to other girls too. I want to stop and let this guy go but it’s so hard. Please convince why i should. He’s so trash that i don’t even see myself in the future with him but i always accept the bare minimum treatment he gives me.