like i get where she come from and why she so self aware about herself now bc she was basically live on survival mode in her house back then and have to gain favor from her father back then by showing her "usefulness" as exchange for him to spare her and sion. Her status as a fallen noble and a criminal also played a part in why she thinks like that, plus her knowing she was a part in sion's painful past made her felt like a burden and really didn't think he would develop any romantic feelings for her.
like i get where she come from and why she so self aware about herself now bc she was basically live on survival mode in her house back then and have to gain favor from her father back then by showing her "usefulness" as exchange for him to spare her and sion. Her status as a fallen noble and a criminal also played a part in why she thinks like that, plus her knowing she was a part in sion's painful past made her felt like a burden and really didn't think he would develop any romantic feelings for her.