It stumps me why he doesn't say anything.... wouldn't that help keep Lerushab by his side?!?
He doesn’t want that for him. He wants to set him free and live a normal life, which is something mc doesn’t think he could bring if he stayed by his side.
What I got it is this is that Alexei doesn't want him to leave AT ALL. Art this point ( up to where I've read) 18. He hasn't told him, letting the kid hate him. He finally made up his mind to let him go at this stage but he's keeping him by his side until, at a minimum, to not get involved with Vinter. But he kept digging himself into a hole at this point to keep Lerusha around. The problem is, he Didn't tell Lerusha why he had beaten him up and left him for dead at all. I'll have to reread that chapter when he said he couldn't tell him why. But all the while while he wants freedom and a better life for Lerusha, he had NEVER once let him go.... Currently and before, he did this to save the kid, but until now, he HADN'T told the kid. I want taking about now. I was talking about right after the event and all the way to the current time....
He could've let the kid leave WAYYY before this Vintner issue. Is what I've been to get at.... He's 21 now. Not a kid anymore...he could've let him go at ANY moment in time. He did NOT. Only after this time after he's finally made up his mind, he had to protect him again by not letting him go .... But just manipulated him some more....I suppose the danger haven't passed yet so maybe h that's why he lied about the relationship but how much is willing and needing to protect him and how much is he willing to let go AFTER this is all said and done.
But, I'm assuming, at some point he will be able to kill off his boss n gang and frer them both from this life. Question is how MUCH had he been willing to let Lerusha go?!? I wonder why, regardless of his talent, he has chosen to be by Alexei's side, regardless of knowing the truth. He has the potential to become a world renowned ballerina....so even when he didn't tell him. He had still stayed. Unless it was Alexei's doing that had bound him there in the first place.... I'm getting conflicting feelings & messages from the both of them.
ooo u got a point there. Both of them have extremely conflicting emotions. Perhaps mc WANTS to let him go, but can’t and gives himself excuses which leads him to make a series of rash decisions that he can’t turn back from. Same w ml, he WANTS to leave and hates him, but can’t bcs deep down, he still loves his brother.
I think I understand why mc is not telling ml why he beat him up when he was a kid. As frustrating as it is to not clear up sm misunderstandings, I think he feels like he deserves to be hated by ml. I think it’s like “I did a horrible thing, even though it was for his own good, I’m trash, so why should I be even given a chance of forgiveness?”