hmm I understand why’d you think that way but I’m afraid you’re overlooking the most crucial thing here; how fl feels .. just imagine if you were put into that same exact situation
Imagine waking up one day to find yourself inside a game, where a single wrong choice can literally kill her. It’s a literal survival game and that situation isn’t one where love blooms freely. Every relationship is a potential trap, and every moment of vulnerability is a gamble with her life. When you’re constantly one step from death, you start to prioritize safety over sincerity and that's exactly what she's doing.
Now about E, yes, she’s leaning on him like an “endgame option,” and yes, it does feel ironic or even hypocritical but keep in mind her situation, she isn’t using him to climb a ladder nor to feel superior. She clings to him because he’s the only one who hasn't yet shown signs of betrayal, the only one who hasn’t shown signs of the death ending.
She wants to believe in him but she’s too terrified to let her guard down and see him as a real person. It’s not that she doesn’t care, it’s that caring in her world is dangerous. It’s not out of cruelty, but more as a defense mechanism. Hope is dangerous and trust can get you killed. That’s why she reduces E to a symbol of escape because that's the only way she can emotionally survive.
True but you got to understand mc point too, what if the one person who you believe you could trust in a world that wants to kill you brought back your main death card?? Not only didn't you ask for that nor were you even prepared for that but the person who brought them back was the one who you were hoping to set you free. I'd be pissed, no fucking furious at him to the point I wouldn't want to look at him.
Yeah, I know. I'd do the same anyway, maybe it's the guilt that made me think about it.
That's totally true. I've already read the recent chapters, and it's just disappointing to see what E has come to be. To think that he's already been used as entertainment, even if it endangers his life, that he's been put through struggles to meet his master's desires, only to be discarded and exploited as a mere puppet for something. The dude doesn't even have a purpose in life other than to be used and useful — all of it just pities me. But don't get me wrong, I don't want E to be our FL's endgame just because of that, right from the start, he already oozed untrustworthy behavior for me.
True, I can't help but pity him, his life is actually pretty fucking sad tbh, but play stupid games with stupid prizes...
I can't do this anymore. I've been reading the rest of the chapters with the thought of E in the back of mind, thinking of ironic the FL for not wanting the White haired ML because he feels like an "insurance" thing yet at the same time, she sees E as an insurance. She tells herself that E would be her end game in her survival but doesn't cherish him. She's putting all her money on E, it's no less than him getting out of that auctioned like where she first met him.
The FL is treating E as an object of protection, not as a person. I won't even find it baffling if E somehow turned over her (romantically).