This is so sad and the author does a good job of explaining why he thinks the way he does. He’s had everything he’s ever wanted leave or taken away from him and then beaten for wanting to have anything. When someone like hangun had a crush on him no wonder he constantly second guessed and believed he would cheat. And if you constantly have those thoughts of course you see a questionable situation and it becomes reality for you. He didn’t even fight bc he thought that way from the start. “If I convince myself I never wanted it and it wasn’t mine, I won’t be sad when it gets taken away” AHHH IM SOO TAT TT^TT. The thing about him having the nerve to take his pants off too, I didn’t realise he kept pushing him away to force him to take the initiative but hangun would never do that because he doesn’t want to do something without consent and hurt him so no duh he didn’t take initiative but because he already thinks he’s playing with him, that’s why he thinks he won’t just push him down. AAAARGHH FUCK his dad should just fucking die
This is so sad and the author does a good job of explaining why he thinks the way he does. He’s had everything he’s ever wanted leave or taken away from him and then beaten for wanting to have anything. When someone like hangun had a crush on him no wonder he constantly second guessed and believed he would cheat. And if you constantly have those thoughts of course you see a questionable situation and it becomes reality for you. He didn’t even fight bc he thought that way from the start. “If I convince myself I never wanted it and it wasn’t mine, I won’t be sad when it gets taken away” AHHH IM SOO TAT TT^TT. The thing about him having the nerve to take his pants off too, I didn’t realise he kept pushing him away to force him to take the initiative but hangun would never do that because he doesn’t want to do something without consent and hurt him so no duh he didn’t take initiative but because he already thinks he’s playing with him, that’s why he thinks he won’t just push him down. AAAARGHH FUCK his dad should just fucking die