Omg I actually love you? (You said all what I was thinking) Like I feel Ive been the only one yelling into a void of nonsensical ppl who can’t comprehend his character or eventually development?
Like yes, jihan isn't perfect but WHO IS? Even my bbg heeseop isnt perfect— he’s a goofy perv weirdo but he has a heart of gold like come on now. The story is more of a slow burn in terms of love than it is smut. But it’ll only make the smut better when love gets involved, unlike other BL.
It feels like others just want him to already be changed when character development doesn’t work like that and it takes time to heal from. Reading the recent raw chapters it feels like we are slowly getting that jihan— because it feels when he is around heeseop he feels loved and wants to try but when he’s around jiyoung or seongbin he reverts back to that closed hearted individual.
Like don't get me wrong Jihan is a jerk pretty frequently in this story but like...y'all getting mad at him for not knowing how to handle a situation in which your ex (now a famous celebrity) pressures you into going a date with him (after you tell him no and to leave you alone multiple times) by leveraging his fame to make you act accordingly is... interesting. I thought we grew past the victim blaming back in the late 2010s but I guess I was wrong.
Also yes Jihan is being wishy-washy but like it's kind of integral to his character development, no? Am I crazy for thinking this? Is the point of this story not about him learning that it's okay to love and trust others? Isn't the whole reason he has complicated feelings about Heeseop because that's the first person to actually consider his feelings and continue to reassure him that they love him genuinely. Yes Jiyeong does too but he fucked up and broke Jihan's trust pretty significantly. And since Jihan doesn't feel comfortable sharing his past there's not much he can do to fix it.
The whole point of this series is that Jihan learns to trust and love again. Did you think it would just happen like that with no bumps in the road? Don't get me wrong it's not a perfect story and Jihan isn't a perfect character but the complaints are so nonsensical to me. Real cow on a cow farm type shit.