Am I toxic cuz I get Won lol? Not condoning the manipulation and I don’t get why he went to such a dark route, but I get why he’s obsessed. Jinha is the only person who’s shown him kindness and cared about his feelings without expecting anything in return. He’s held onto that moment and that person in his head to get through the abuse he endured under his tutor. He idolized Jinha like a god to believe in something good, to believe in something that could love him unconditionally, to cope and get through the helplessness and pain he was enduring. Jinha became his hope, his god. And I get Jinha too. From ch 54 or 55, he says “Is there anyone who would go this far, to do anything to never stop liking me?” And that “It’s severe, yet sweet.” It’s obviously not sweet but Jinha comes from a family who ignores him and puts his older brother on a pedestal. He’s never known what healthy adoring attention feels like, so this kind of devoted singular obsession looks like love. In Jinha’s eyes, Won’s actions are crazy because they caused him so much pain but at the same time he understands the reason behind is to try to keep him attached, because someone wants him this much. Someone put him on a pedestal like his parents did with Jinseo. Def a very dark story to read, but it was enjoyable still. Psychological trip for sure. Obsessive relationships dont typically have happy endings as shown with the tutor and Jinseo. Dunno if I should be happy Won and Jinha got their happy ending together, but I am. Hopefully they go to therapy tho (￣∇￣")
Am I toxic cuz I get Won lol? Not condoning the manipulation and I don’t get why he went to such a dark route, but I get why he’s obsessed. Jinha is the only person who’s shown him kindness and cared about his feelings without expecting anything in return. He’s held onto that moment and that person in his head to get through the abuse he endured under his tutor. He idolized Jinha like a god to believe in something good, to believe in something that could love him unconditionally, to cope and get through the helplessness and pain he was enduring. Jinha became his hope, his god.
And I get Jinha too. From ch 54 or 55, he says “Is there anyone who would go this far, to do anything to never stop liking me?” And that “It’s severe, yet sweet.” It’s obviously not sweet but Jinha comes from a family who ignores him and puts his older brother on a pedestal. He’s never known what healthy adoring attention feels like, so this kind of devoted singular obsession looks like love. In Jinha’s eyes, Won’s actions are crazy because they caused him so much pain but at the same time he understands the reason behind is to try to keep him attached, because someone wants him this much. Someone put him on a pedestal like his parents did with Jinseo.
Def a very dark story to read, but it was enjoyable still. Psychological trip for sure. Obsessive relationships dont typically have happy endings as shown with the tutor and Jinseo. Dunno if I should be happy Won and Jinha got their happy ending together, but I am. Hopefully they go to therapy tho (￣∇￣")