He would lock me up whenever I was loud, it was lonely inside. My mother too was scared of him and would never say a thing. But she was the only one who would unlock the door at the end of the day to give me some food. Then it would repeat until I learned to stay quiet. I would keep quiet at school too until one day I'll explode and have a huge fight with someone. My parents would get called, and then it'll repeat all over again. Unfortunately I never found a good friend to rely on. I'd try to lie to my parents to hang out with them, but my father would find out eventually. He would go and check my tution centres if I was actually there. He didn't give me a phone, so I couldn't even talk to anyone about it. I have grown up alone, never learned to make friends or how to keep them. I'm super weird. People have felt ashamed of me whenever I'm in public. So I've become a recluse now, don't go out if I don't have to. I should also stop coming to this website as a way of escapism but I don't have the motivation.. is there any point in me trying to have a better life ? When I know I'll be alone all throughout it.
He would lock me up whenever I was loud, it was lonely inside. My mother too was scared of him and would never say a thing. But she was the only one who would unlock the door at the end of the day to give me some food.
Then it would repeat until I learned to stay quiet.
I would keep quiet at school too until one day I'll explode and have a huge fight with someone. My parents would get called, and then it'll repeat all over again.
Unfortunately I never found a good friend to rely on. I'd try to lie to my parents to hang out with them, but my father would find out eventually. He would go and check my tution centres if I was actually there. He didn't give me a phone, so I couldn't even talk to anyone about it.
I have grown up alone, never learned to make friends or how to keep them. I'm super weird. People have felt ashamed of me whenever I'm in public.
So I've become a recluse now, don't go out if I don't have to. I should also stop coming to this website as a way of escapism but I don't have the motivation.. is there any point in me trying to have a better life ? When I know I'll be alone all throughout it.