
LMAO!!!! You got the first sentence right. But at this point in my life, I don't give a damn if I even have a person out there or not anymore, much less what they're doing. (And on that note- if he is too "busy flirting", that's a behavior that will never stop- the devil can keep his ass. If he's married + waiting for an annulment/ divorce, he needs a therapist, not me.)
This might be a bit much, but bear with me.....
At this point in my life, a heffer is TIRED!!! I feel like I'm ready to retire from this world, but I still have too much left in the tank to quit yet. I've managing and caring for people my whole damn life with no brakes, I'm burnt out, and I'm DONE! I've deliberately spent the last decade single, cuz as much as the heart wants what it wants (because as living beings, we all want companionship), humans are an EXHAUSTING and AGGRAVATING-AS-FUCK species! And as far as the dating pool goes.... it's been pissed, shitted, and vomited in, and it's getting worse. Yet that's the selection we gotta choose from?! Nah, I'm good! The level of peace that being single and unbothered brings is unmatched! I'm not trading this for shit! Human society has done a good job of making people fear being alone in their own company, just to settle with unhealthy, damaging and abusive people/ relationships/ situations for decades, when learning yourself in singlehood (at any age, but specially when you're young) is actually one of the most healthiest and grounding things you can do for yourself. (Because how can you truly know yourself as an individual if you're always latched on to somebody else?) For a lot of single women today, a potential partner has to compete with HER need for peace, security, deservingly high standards for self-respect, and to not be stressed out by someone else's unhealed, dusty ass, immature offspring! We're not here to be managing other people's overgrown children or broken projects. If I wanted that, i can adopt or volunteer my time at a prison!

Holy shett hahaha You dropped the mic. That's a whole TED Talk!
Listen… after that monologue, I feel like I’ve been spiritually seasoned hahah. Actually, I'm just curious of how TF does sex feels like where it will blow your mind and drive your insane. I just want the experience, not the commitment hahah
If peace, clarity, and self-respect are what come with staying out of the mess, then maybe being late to the ‘party’ isn’t such a loss after all. Virginity? More like V.I.P. pass to sanity . And hey, who knew my 24-year-old self would be looking up to a 40-year-old like, ‘Yup. She gets it.’ "

(Damn this thing cut the end of my reply...)
(...continued) .... Perfect example, look at what Euhyun had to deal with in Taeju before he went through his character development. How many people in this world have been fucked up and damaged by the Taeju's of this world?
Enjoying with heartwarming (and smutty as fuck

...stories in my spare time is enough for me. I take my joy where I can and keep on enjoying all the other amazing things that life has to offer! And believe me, life doesn't begin/end at finding love- it's just another pit stop on the road of life that you can either take or do without. If I'm meant to have somebody it will happen. I can't control that, and will leave it up to God or the universe! (▰˘◡˘▰) In the meantime, I have tall, muscular, giant, 2D men with unrealistic "water bottle" size dicks for my private entertainment!
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(Also, sorry for any errors. It's 11a.m. where I am, and I just woke up. I'm too tired to catch every tiny mistake that speech-to-text made. I did my best.

Yes, i feel so much in peace bening alone and I love being alone, I never really fell in love romantically, but just the thought what a have endurance to be with someone give me pain, like I will NEVER live with any partner, I already so feed up living with my family( which I can't move out bc of money and bc they need assistance) but having someone meddling on what, when or how I do things every day for years drain my soul. So i fear that if live with a partner I will end up hating them. So I perfer give the peace that I wish to not date someone, I have friends so lack company isn't a issue for me, and just like I said I like to be alone, I can go days, weeks or even months with out the need to talk to someone.

Oh that's one of my curiosity too, I'm very interested in know about sex and love, so I read a lot of forums about it, videos, history and talk about it. But i never really wanted it for me, I wants to experience it for only know what's feel like in first hand. I always felt the curiosity about sex, but I never have interest in anyone to do it, even more to take my virginity, since people say it hurts and I hate this idea, so the guy should be a nice one and a good guy and I have to be interested him enough to feel comfortable, very difficult. So I think of two options, 1 I take my on virginity with toys to the point I feel comfortable enough with it, and then I will only have to find someone I have interest (which is very difficult thing) or 2 I hire someone to sleep with just to know what's it feels, since I'm hire someone that should be a nice person too, bc in my mind it's more easy to stop mid way if I want with someone I hire than with someone I meet and decide to sleep with. Or option 3- both options 1 and 2 haha.

..... A lot of the crazy, insane, overwhelming, and blinding sensation-overload that is depicted in these mangas are not realistic at all. Just like porn, they are over exaggerated to stimulate the mind and drive a strong physical arousal response in the reader's body. (And it freaking works! ) While some people in reality can achieve this level of insane orgasmic gratification, most don't. But, sometimes, it also depends on if you have a good partner that not only has experience, but knows human anatomy and how to work your body. (Typically, those types of people are very hard to find, but they are "givers" of pleasure, and take joy in arousing their partners. The opposite of that, is getting a partner that is selfish, will do what they want to your body without care, seeking their pleasure only, and as soon as they're done they leave you without having experienced your own pleasure.

Have I had good sex- yes. Have I had shitty sex- also yes. Have I had mind blowing sex- can't say that I have. But regardless of how it felt, sex is something that can be easily had by anybody with genitals. What is not easy, is finding a deep, honest, trustworthy, genuine, and lasting connection with a person. Even if the sex is really great, if the person you're doing it with has a mind and soul that is similar to a lot of the psychotic, narcissistic, trash semes in these web novels, then it wasn't worth having. Because, in the moment, your body is going to feel great, but after the moment is gone, you will feel like garbage for having ever allowed that person anywhere near you, much less into your life. (People like that will be showing their red flags, before you get into bed with them. Always listen to your survival instincts- NOT your stupid heart- and leave at the first sign.) Life is too short to be having sex with people that make you feel like dog shit that's been run over 100x, so for this reason, I will say, "Choose your partner wisely!" You will be allowing this person intimate access to your head, your heart, your soul, and your body. Through your consent, they will have the power and the ability to either nurture, love, and build you up into a better person with their love, affection, and commitment to your life.... or completely rip you apart, degrade you as a human being, destroy your mental health, and eviscerate your life... thus, leaving you a broken shell of yourself. A lot of the stories on here are just that- fictional. But plot inspiration for all of these stories come from realities that have already been lived in one way or another. You can walk up to any person and find out how many people have been cheated on, betrayed, abused, neglected, left for dead, and worse. Things like what happens in these stories actually happen in real life. And in some real life cases, people do not survive. That is an unfortunate reality of real life relationships. Domestic violence shelters and graves are full of those results. (I know this because I have personally helped women through this.) I do not mean to scare you, but if you are female, you know the dangers of living in this world. Also, i don't want you making light of the world around you and the individuals that you come across, because of the novels that you read. Do not let fantasy dull your senses and con you into thinking that dating and relationships are a fairy tale.

As far as who you share your body with..... again, PERSONALLY, I believe you should be only sharing your body with someone you have especially strong feelings for that extends beyond platonic feelings, and are indicative of "love" or a profound and consistent genuine interest in your desired person. AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, your desired person needs to RECIPROCATE THOSE SAME FEELINGS BACK TO YOU. There are people in this world who can have physical relations with others and not feel any mental or emotional attachment (like those who entertain "No Strings Attached" relationships), but I am not one of them. In fact, many people are not like that. I cannot speak on what that kind of experience is like, because I've never had it for myself, nor do I want it. I am "wired" differently, and am very exclusive and protective over myself and who I share my time, energy, and body with. (As everybody should be on some level for basic self protection and preservation.) In my opinion, a person should have to earn you, not have easy access to you like you were some cheap thing they have easy access to and can throw away when you no longer serve their needs. How you value or see yourself, is up to you, and will directly determine how you share yourself and interact with others. It'll also determine if whether other people respect you, especially enough to show consideration or care to your body or your life. (Do not treat yourself cheaply, or else you send others the wrong message that they can do that to you as well.) The closer you get to somebody, especially when physical touch becomes involved, it is typically natural that you're going to feel more emotionally/ mentally attached to that person. That is normal. But if in "experimenting", you realize that you don't have this feeling and can have intimate relations freely without emotional or mental attachments, then that is good too. Do what you will with that- but just be safe about it. (Ie- vet/background search the other person, always use protection, make sure the other person isn't carrying STDs, safe calls with trusted friends/ family, etc.) Ultimately, only you can decide what is best for you, and I cannot make that decision for you. But I can give you advice regarding safety, boundaries, and taking precautions to preserving your mental, emotional, and physical health if you are going to engage in relationships or activities with others.

WTF?!?! (⊙…⊙ ) Absolutely do NOT pay anybody to do anything to you! That is the most horrifying thing you could do. Especially when it comes to and trusting somebody with your virginity. Anybody willing to take money to give you a "first-time" experience does not have your best interest at heart, and will abuse you (and yes I'm talking about possible r&pe.) your first time should be with somebody you care about and trust implicitly. Do not be in a rush to give that away. In fact I was 18 when I lost mine (I was also considered a "late bloomer"), and yes it did hurt because that's biology. If you look up a particular part of the female reproductive anatomy- the hymen- you will learn what it is, it's purpose, and how it's "lost" during a female's first intercourse (aka- losing virginity). Aside from it being "destroyed" during your first time, you're also going to be very tight because nothing has ever been up there before (unless you've used a tampon. I don't use those.) So a guy's "hot dog" stretching you out for the first time also contributes to the pain. This is why it's important to find a partner that cares about you, your body, your safety, and your health. They will make sure to go slowly and check in with you during intercourse to ensure that you're okay, and if you're not, they will stop and attend to you. This should be discussed in a very in-depth conversation before getting into bed with anybody. Any partner who is not willing to do this for you, should not have access to you. PERIOD! That is a non-negotiable that you should NEVER change for anybody! DON'T LET ANY JACKASS CONVINCE YOU OTHERWISE!Your body deserves the best in terms of treatment and safety!
If you want to stretch yourself out beforehand, on your own with *toys*, feel free to do so! In fact, I highly encourage self-play and masturbation cuz it is the best way for you to learn about yourself and your body, what you like/dislike in terms of sensations, touch, etc. Unfortunately, I never had anybody to teach me this (which is the sad experience of most females in this world for centuries) so like many before me, I learned things the hard way. Even if you play with toys you will still be a virgin. (Virginity is your first sexual intercourse.) So give yourself as much pleasure as you want WHILE you wait for the right person! ლ(´ڡ`ლ)
He said, "a bit", not the whole package!!!!
The 24 single virgin me is grinning and smiling over this. I wish I could fool around and experience how wholesome love really is!!!! Lord, heed my prayers, I beg!!!