yaoi where the uke is just a replacement of the seme’s past crush

the seme have black hair and he is quite rude and toxic with the uke
the seme is looking for his childhod friend but he doesn't remember the face of his childhod friend that he has a crush
if im not wrong the uke is actually the boy he is looking for
the uke is blonde because the seme crush has blonde hair
the seme mistreated the uke a lot and seme regret it