take this with a chunk of salt cuz im still young & not that emotionally mature but i’d say give him a shot if you’re ready to be in a relationship because i dont think being friends would end up as just that
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I don't know I'm afraid to be left out, I feel old when I'm with him, he's still too young, I think he's still a kid that's only want to have fun and not take me seriously, and even if I'm not that old in person, like you could have mistaken me for like a 23 or so, and some people don't believe me when I say that Im 29, but still, I feel obligated to guide him and not lead him in to a relationship that might be a failure too. I'm afraid that he would blame me if we continue what we have now.
Last year, around april, I met a guy, a younger guy, I'm 29 f, and he's 20, we get along pretty well, we became so close that we meet from time to time, I have a long time partner but the attention that I want is what the younger guy can give me. Around November last year crazy things happened to me. From meet ups, then kisses when saying goodbye. And then December came, and that thing happened, I know it's cheating but, I love it like I'm getting addicted doing it (sex) with the younger guy. Like he's so wild that I learned lots of ways about sex. Please don't judge me, February this year, I stop seeing him, and I also broke up with my long-time partner, well I confess to my partner about this and he also has other girl, so we decided to end the relationship, staying is like a toxic shit.
The thing is even if we didn't meet (the younger guy) we still call and chat each other, I tried to not reply and all but he keeps on chatting and calling me, he said its okay for him even if we don't have label, just friends, like that, but he keeps on saying that "please don't ignore me and chat me back".
Should I continue chatting and talking to him or ignore him completely so he will stop chatting me and calling me. I feel guilty chatting him cause he said that he doesn't want to meet new girls his age and he can't forget the things we did.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?