Tbh I can't understand MC the most. Why's he still following guwon after all these and why...

Tbh I can't understand MC the most. Why's he still following guwon after all these and why his reactions always kinda passive and suppressed?? I'm not sure if that's the right word cause if that's me in his place ill be screaming punching doing whatever it takes to let out my frustration


EDIT: I forgot trauma exist guys I was too invested in the story. Now that makes sense