That imagination scene and later hurting himself

Mokyeon is super relatable in this chapter. Some of you are thinking only about the action, but what Mokyeon was doing is the classic “I want you to hurt as badly as I am hurting.” It took the shape of brutal schmeck in his imagination, BECAUSE Mokyeon would cope with his hurt feelings with brutal schmeck. (Remember how he was the sadist in all his interactions before Nanjo…)

Mokie didn’t want to hurt Nanjo so he let him go. Since he didn’t have an outlet to hurt someone else, he decides to hurt himself. He is self destructing rn. He goes to his fwb’s birthday party (a source of his pain): sits next to fwb, chugs straight alcohol, tears the earring out and gives it to fwb all without flinching.

As someone else said, Mokie is just a super sensitive soft boy despite his appearance. The complete opposite of the twink.