Unfortunately even after reading it a million times I also don’t understand it fully but my best guess it had something to do with non-con since rape was mentioned (I might be wrongggg)
From what I understood, though it wasn't necessarily non consensual, Creed used Ryan to replicate rape and within that scene did exactly that whilst not caring about how Ryan felt at all and making sure he was still comfortable amd having despite the scene he wanted to portray. So in the end, for Ryan, he just got raped, hence why he said those things about Creed being no better than a rapist.
Damn, that hit deep
What did creed do to ryan I can't keep my eyes open anymore but I want to understand