SAW THE COMMENT OF ANONYMOUS 777 AND I FINALLY SORTED OUT MY THOUGHTS ABOUT THE STORY. As ...

SAW THE COMMENT OF ANONYMOUS 777 AND I FINALLY SORTED OUT MY THOUGHTS ABOUT THE STORY. As I was reading the story, there are so many thoughts i can't put into words and reading the comment by 777 saying that the ml always like to played a victim in which it finally strucks me.

To start with, Shu feng is a pathological liar. In ten years of hiding, he developed many personalities (he forged so many names, so lying became his habit, either intentional or unintentional), that's why he's having a hard time telling truthful personal information. Him leaving Lele to hide showed how he can leave everything behind to save himself—he's a coward and trauma, that's why the only decision is to always run away to his problems. Agreed, how he doesn't get to play a victim in the last chapter, Lele has the right to feel betrayed over Shu feng white lies and has some space by thinking things. Not everything can be rushed—he needs a break from everything—he had just met shu feng a while ago then suddenly he need to wait again for more years since shu feng is a murderer but when they arrived at the police station, having to process that shu feng is not a murderer but instead his mom was and the case was closed long time ago in which the police only want confirmation?!!?!?! Anyone would get emotional over that!!!! That shit is overwhelming. However now that everything is solved suddenly shu feng want to start right away with his relationship with Lele by turning it the other way around saying "don't abandon me" shu feng is emotional too and he didn’t interpret what Lele really wanted to convey. Lele is selfless. That's why he just accepts Shu feng decision right away. The ending could have been well written instead of rushed work. Reminder, forgiveness takes time and you have no right to demand for it, at which you need to acknowledge and accept the consequences for that matter. Basically the opposite of what happened in the last chapter.

Shu feng is actually good at the beginning of the story—in where he help Lele to figure out what's lele feelings for the blue haired guy, although it didn't end well since the blue haired guy is stuck in the past where he can't accept that Lele changed after he left him. But as the latter goes on, his behavior and way of thinking is deeply influenced by his trauma and history.

Let's talk about a blue haired guy too. I think he has mental illness, but i don't know what it is called since he keeps wanting to develop any relationship with anyone who shows some characteristics that Lele had in the past. I'm not a psychologist to know what it could be, but honestly, it goes deeper way more than him labelled as a cheater. (I am not supporting him by saying this, but seeing his childlike behavior, maybe he has impostor syndrome or two face illnesses, or is it different? Idk, but it feels like it) Can someone who have deeper knowledge explain it? Considering his family and isolation as well.

I love Lele and his character is good, better from other characters. Honestly, it's good he didn't go after with shu feng at the bus station because looking at their relationship, it's still early to be with a man you just met on the street, became your worker, and a company for weeks and days. The way Lele reaching out to him at the bus station show how hopeless romantic he is—to even think of leaving everything behind. He long for intimacy that's anyone near him showing lightest interest, he will get attached to them. Another one, he's selfless because look at how he change himself when that blue haired guy said so? Looking back at the story, you will notice so many things that Lele did just for others validation.

This story is similar to the necklace by guy de maupassant. But actually, Shu feng feelings is still valid. He's a child back then and he got neglected by his mother so he was force to make decisions he didn’t want and no one is right by his side.