I'm so sorry for venting, I cried whole night that I even forgot to sleep lol
I’m so sorry that you’re going through that hun. It’s not your fault at all, I’m sure your grandmother wouldn’t want you to place the blame on yourself either. Adults often times act more immature than adolescents it’s honestly absurd that they’re blaming you. They should know better than to do something like that although, age never has anything to do with humanity or common sense sadly. Please don’t blame yourself for this situation anymore. I truly hope your situation gets better love, if you ever need anyone to talk to or rant to my dms are always open!
thank you so much, I really appreciate it. I'm actually currently healing, baby steps and little by little. I recognized that it can't be heal on its own. I tried to do certain fun things that I haven't done before. But I can't really just erase the guilt that I feel when I'm being too happy. I'm just doing well and I hope life doesn't punish me too much
I literally cried a lot while reading this. This story aligns to what I've experienced and yes, it's really hard to be a better person like she is rn. I locked myself up after my aunt and uncle blamed me of my grandmother's death even though the people around me says I'm not, she's the one who raised me, my parents are separated. I'm in my shs years that time and I'm really competitive in academics. I'm always drained everytime I go home, sometimes I will just fell asleep on my bed with exhaustion with my jeans on. But they will always ramble about the chores I haven't done. They will call me a bunch of slurs and etc. I injured that for 3 years.
Even right now, I still can't stop blaming myself everyday and I'll just keep crying about it and acts like nothing happened. I'm a sophomore now and living alone, I have my father supporting my daily need but we're definitely poor. It's much better than living in a house so stifling that can make sa living person insane.
The only differences is that we're poor and I haven't done any pranks.