Due to genetics, my fertility has always been a bit questionable. Lately I've been having symptoms of periomenopause and it's scared the shit out of me. I felt like a failure, I wondered why my body doesn't work the way I wanted to either. I felt hungry even though I just ate, I my body felt anxious even though my brain felt clear, and I felt scared about what my partner would think of me and others around me because of my condition.
It felt like it wasn't my body anymore. I relate to her friend a lot because of that. But also that's not to say I don't understand MC's issues either. I also wondered if I wanted a child, having a child is so much more complicated than just giving birth or being pregnant because one has to consider taking care of a living being. But even pregnancy by itself is complicated and anxiety inducing. Also the assumption that women want children or it's normal also disturbs me especially when it's someone who I'm not close with. It just grosses me out.
Having a child would make me happy, that's something that me and my partner talked through but the process seems to scare me a lot. It still does.
I'm doing fine now though, I talked it through, I have my support system and everyone supports me but I think this manga was really what I needed as of this moment. I feel better seeing the issues of pregnancy and the topic of having a child through many different lenses.
Infertility, sexism, childrearing as a single parent alone intersected with trauma, being repulsed from pregnancy due to trauma, and financial insecurity. This manga just made me realize that these issues I'm going through, many people must be as well. They just never talk about it. Plus it's far more complicated than one may think.
All these characters are so complex and all are affected by feelings of insecurity towards a certain extent due to these topics of family and children. Of feeling like a failure and wanting to be what they perceive as better by societal standards which is the issue at hand. I think I understand all their feelings towards a certain extent. And whether MC's marriage ends up in divorce or not I hope she'll be happy and know that she isn't a failure because she doesn't want kids like how I'm not a failure for my body not being the way I want it to be.
Due to genetics, my fertility has always been a bit questionable. Lately I've been having symptoms of periomenopause and it's scared the shit out of me. I felt like a failure, I wondered why my body doesn't work the way I wanted to either. I felt hungry even though I just ate, I my body felt anxious even though my brain felt clear, and I felt scared about what my partner would think of me and others around me because of my condition.
It felt like it wasn't my body anymore. I relate to her friend a lot because of that. But also that's not to say I don't understand MC's issues either. I also wondered if I wanted a child, having a child is so much more complicated than just giving birth or being pregnant because one has to consider taking care of a living being. But even pregnancy by itself is complicated and anxiety inducing. Also the assumption that women want children or it's normal also disturbs me especially when it's someone who I'm not close with. It just grosses me out.
Having a child would make me happy, that's something that me and my partner talked through but the process seems to scare me a lot. It still does.
I'm doing fine now though, I talked it through, I have my support system and everyone supports me but I think this manga was really what I needed as of this moment. I feel better seeing the issues of pregnancy and the topic of having a child through many different lenses.
Infertility, sexism, childrearing as a single parent alone intersected with trauma, being repulsed from pregnancy due to trauma, and financial insecurity. This manga just made me realize that these issues I'm going through, many people must be as well. They just never talk about it. Plus it's far more complicated than one may think.
All these characters are so complex and all are affected by feelings of insecurity towards a certain extent due to these topics of family and children. Of feeling like a failure and wanting to be what they perceive as better by societal standards which is the issue at hand. I think I understand all their feelings towards a certain extent. And whether MC's marriage ends up in divorce or not I hope she'll be happy and know that she isn't a failure because she doesn't want kids like how I'm not a failure for my body not being the way I want it to be.