i keep crying for ahn

like when i think abt how he got here to this point, i just cry. Imagine getting torn away from your orphanage, to be groomed and used by the rebels who literally enslaved every guide they took, and you, the CHILD was told that you're nothing and worthless as guide but still kept around as an errand boy. AND WHEN YOU THOUGHT YOU'RE FINALLY FREE, and this extremely famous esper showed INTENSE interest in you, when things finally feels like it's going to turn around, YOU ARE LITERALLY THROWN AWAY LIKE TRASH, SUDDENLY, all because the person who showered you with interest actually mistaken you as a women. YOU WEREN'T EVEN THE ONE WHO TOLD HIM YOU'RE A GIRL, BUT SOMEHOW THE BLAME WAS PUT ON YOU???? and because of your background, NOT A SINGLE PERSON BACKED YOU UP. instead you now have to build a life without any resources, and all the criticism, all the hatred, all just falls onto you. FOLLOWING you, years after. then suddenly the guy who literally OBLITERATED your chance at a nice fresh start, came back grinding on your leg like a dog, acting like he never did anything to you? THE GUY WHO REGURGITATED HIS LUNCH WHEN HE FINALLY REALISES YOU'RE A MAN???