Its not as simple as saying "you can't save anyone if you're overworked!" Or tired, and whatnot as literally a second he's not in action equates to the deaths of hundreds of people, he otherwise could've saved (not to mention in his experience, complancency or even a minute of time to spend with his family literally resulted in a genocide). He literally cannot afford to rest, despite how stupid as it seems to us. So, what he's hearing from the MC is not to simply just "rest and leave it to the others" but rather "let them all die".
And even though there's a good amount of hunters who are competent or at least the same rank like Esther, no one can measure up to his work ethic and his contributions to the lives saved (not to mention from his viewpoint if he can do the job of 50 hunters, why risk the lives of 50 other people). People aren't statistics, and he knows this. He's definitely been conditioned by the pressures that come with being the so-called "number 1".
Hopefully, he'll stop blaming himself and start to trust others once he sees how "strong" the MC is, then the burden of being the strongest will he taken off his shoulders.
Its not as simple as saying "you can't save anyone if you're overworked!" Or tired, and whatnot as literally a second he's not in action equates to the deaths of hundreds of people, he otherwise could've saved (not to mention in his experience, complancency or even a minute of time to spend with his family literally resulted in a genocide). He literally cannot afford to rest, despite how stupid as it seems to us. So, what he's hearing from the MC is not to simply just "rest and leave it to the others" but rather "let them all die".
And even though there's a good amount of hunters who are competent or at least the same rank like Esther, no one can measure up to his work ethic and his contributions to the lives saved (not to mention from his viewpoint if he can do the job of 50 hunters, why risk the lives of 50 other people). People aren't statistics, and he knows this. He's definitely been conditioned by the pressures that come with being the so-called "number 1".
Hopefully, he'll stop blaming himself and start to trust others once he sees how "strong" the MC is, then the burden of being the strongest will he taken off his shoulders.