I’m guessing it has something to do with his father’s sudden passing, I doubt he had any other way to process it, and it doesn’t seem as though he ever had any really helpful adults around… even with the coach and his mother, it wasn’t like they could focus on him alone, and despite the values getting instilled in him from their care and positive impacts, there wasn’t really enough time for him to unlearn what he experienced before.. plus, his coach wasn’t all that compassionate despite his great intentions, and his mother was elderly… it probably didn’t help that as he was trying to be a good person, that was also the time when his life went particularly downhill… it would be hard to keep your morals alive when every reason you had to do so vanishes at basically the same time.. and the way his father died probably was just the straw that broke the camel’s back..
You make some really interesting points!
To add to what you said about the coach, I think he is a great example of what one can do with limited resources, as he said himself, he did everything he could for those boys, but it just goes to show you that each kid needs more attention on an individual level. I also feel like he just isn't as nurturing as the grandma, which I'm sure jjk misses a lot. The coach and the granny couldn't stop those kids from facing poverty later on either, idk, goes to show that poverty can be a vicious cycle.
Also, I'm wondering if jjk sees his younger self in Kim Dan or maybe he reminds him of his mom? Maybe he even feels jealous because you can tell Dan grew up getting more affection from granny, something I'm sure jjk constantly yearns for.
He definitely sees himself in dan… I also think since he has a bit of a self resentment thing going on he acts particularly harsh towards him because of it, despite also being softer on him for the same reasons… and I definitely agree that his coach did his best considering the circumstances, although I can only imagine what happens after this chapter…
Tbh Jjk's past is messed up and sad but I'm still waiting to see what possibly turned him into the kind of person he is and more importantly WHY did he treat Dan like that and why did he take advantage of him?
Seeing the kind of past he has, he was determined to turn out different, he seems quite aware esp as a teenager of the destructive behavior he grew up and around and how he shouldn't take on certain habits.
But why did he turn into an abuser himself especially with his partners? And kim Dan of all people?
Idk y'all, seeing how aware he was as a teen and how "square" he was, it doesn't make sense to me why he became how he is..