Losing my mind

BestEh August 5, 2025 6:34 am

After my brain surgery, I dont know what is wrong with me. My brain not braining, i overshared a lot and i feel every fckg thing so i cant even read anything without feeling annoyed.

Worst, i dont know what happened to me. Like i cant even keep small information. Few minutes ago the dr explain the symptom and what im having but i forgot. I was told the thing inside my brain was not even dangerous but after intense pressure i went through the surgery

I lost memory and capabilities for no fckg reason. The thing in my head was not an emergency, supposedly it can stop growing or shrink or whatever to the point of non existant but everyone make it a big deal so now my head and brain is in tattered

I live independently before, but now i have to rely and live with my father because i am very low functioning. If i dont type it now, very few minute later will forget everything and be like nothing happened with my dad

He so soft now pretending like he didnt do anything wrong but sometime i remember things and realise why i hate him. Now its a series of my dad begging me to do thing with him that i promised when i dont remember. Worse, he got proof of me being excited we're going to do something fun

Worse fckg worse, when i remember i just ignore him all together so in our chat room it just me being you remember right, im so excited, can wwe do this and that etc etc have good convo aand out of nowhere i ignore him while he literally beg

And dr cant do anything because im fine except for my brain. I reread my comment in these websit, at other social media and realise how fucked up my life was. But im so fckg confuse all the time

Responses
    toastyBooksAndTea August 5, 2025 6:44 am

    Your brain is plastic and malleable, it can heal. Meditating and mindfulness, and aerobic exercise has shown to increase neural connections in the brain. People with TBI recover. You need lots of sleep, you need to eat healthy, exercise, and when things get hard or you are scared? Push through; you need to push through, and your brain will make new connections to adapt. Talk to your neurologist or neurosurgeon to help you with coming up with a plan, all is not lost. If for now your memory is not reliable, outsource it like you are doing with texts, write everything down, let writing be your memory until your brain heals. Good luck.