Bruh… 30 chapters of slow burn and teasing for what ? What was all the buildup for ? To ...

Bruh… 30 chapters of slow burn and teasing for what ? What was all the buildup for ? To rage bait us ? I feel like a fool. Not only we didn’t get to have our smaller top rep cause the dude grew up and became so damn tall (even though one of the reasons why I was so hooked at first was because I knew the top was supposed to be the small one), but we didn’t even get to actually see them fuck at all. Even when they were together and finally BOTH in love And the thing is, not only I accepted how tall the top became (even though I really preferred how he was in the first chapters) but I even accepted that they wouldn’t fuck at all (or at least not explicitly). But now, you’re telling me that we have a whole ass chapter with a very explicit sex scene of one of the MCs and some random weirdo guy who waited for him to be legal and drunk as fuck ?? . What’s the author’s problem ? I really feel like I was baited twice . It’s not even the fact that he slept with someone else tbh. Like, they haven’t seen each other for 2 years, and he’s self destructive, he had been making a lot of bad decisions since the beginning of the story cause he has a LOT of issues, so yeah, I’m not really surprised and I can somehow understand his behaviors, but why did it have to be explicit ? Why dedicating a whole chapter to this sexual scene ? Why couldn’t it have been implied instead?? It’s the fact that we had been invested in the 2 main characters relationship for 30 chapters, with a few chapters where the author teased us about them having sex without actually doing it, and now the FIRST sex scene is THAT ??? As a reader I feel betrayed. Like I was made fun of.