Youngwoon always hides his true feelings from others so it was refreshing to see him let out his anger and yell at Taegu. YW is a master at hiding his emotions. Whenever we have Seo in’s POV, I have no clue what he’s thinking (but I do know since this started with YW POV). Seo-in literally goes crazy because he has always failed to understand the MC’s feelings and intentions. Anyhow it hurts that YW always masks his feelings because of the abuse he went through. He just smiles and doesn’t let out his sadness, anger or desires towards others. That’s why to others he seems simple, pure and kind but he’s really so much more complex than that.( I hope those who get close to him don’t take his kindness for granted)
They’re both so bad at expressing their feelings and communicating due to their past traumas. YW used his smiley mask as a way to pretend everything is good so he didn’t break. And Seo in was basically trained by his mom to pretend everything is alright even when their family was a dumpster fire. (Imagine just pretending everything is cool while your house and world is crashing and burning down-insane!) However, unlike YW, pretending everything was good is probably what caused cracks to form in Seo in’s mental state. This duality is amazing and I just love how two very different people come together.
Moreover, it seems like he has a huge fear of abandonment and revealing his deep feelings seems wayyyy too vulnerable and terrifying. His brain is in survival mode and so he does things to protect himself although his actions are very questionable and unsustainable (i.e treating MC like a disposable sex toy or letting others treat him like one). It’s also especially scary to express his love given that his brother trained his brain to think he couldn’t have anything and once he did, it would be taken away. It’s why YW disappearance broke him. It was the final nail in the coffin. I mean before they met again he was spiraling into this kind of depraved sex life he used to cope/self harm.
This trauma is why he deluded himself into thinking he hated the MC-he’d rather reject first rather than open up and be the one who’s hurt and rejected first. Especially when he’s already given his heart out once only to have it crushed.
Anyhow I don’t think it should take too long. Seo in is too weak against YW. I hope the healing together arc is a lot longer than the angsty getting together arc.
Ah it breaks my heart how they both didn’t know just how much they meant to each other. YW never moved on and Seo in mentally collapsed.
Youngwoon always hides his true feelings from others so it was refreshing to see him let out his anger and yell at Taegu.
YW is a master at hiding his emotions. Whenever we have Seo in’s POV, I have no clue what he’s thinking (but I do know since this started with YW POV).
Seo-in literally goes crazy because he has always failed to understand the MC’s feelings and intentions. Anyhow it hurts that YW always masks his feelings because of the abuse he went through. He just smiles and doesn’t let out his sadness, anger or desires towards others.
That’s why to others he seems simple, pure and kind but he’s really so much more complex than that.( I hope those who get close to him don’t take his kindness for granted)
They’re both so bad at expressing their feelings and communicating due to their past traumas.
YW used his smiley mask as a way to pretend everything is good so he didn’t break. And Seo in was basically trained by his mom to pretend everything is alright even when their family was a dumpster fire. (Imagine just pretending everything is cool while your house and world is crashing and burning down-insane!) However, unlike YW, pretending everything was good is probably what caused cracks to form in Seo in’s mental state.
This duality is amazing and I just love how two very different people come together.
Moreover, it seems like he has a huge fear of abandonment and revealing his deep feelings seems wayyyy too vulnerable and terrifying. His brain is in survival mode and so he does things to protect himself although his actions are very questionable and unsustainable (i.e treating MC like a disposable sex toy or letting others treat him like one). It’s also especially scary to express his love given that his brother trained his brain to think he couldn’t have anything and once he did, it would be taken away. It’s why YW disappearance broke him. It was the final nail in the coffin. I mean before they met again he was spiraling into this kind of depraved sex life he used to cope/self harm.
This trauma is why he deluded himself into thinking he hated the MC-he’d rather reject first rather than open up and be the one who’s hurt and rejected first. Especially when he’s already given his heart out once only to have it crushed.
Anyhow I don’t think it should take too long. Seo in is too weak against YW. I hope the healing together arc is a lot longer than the angsty getting together arc.
Ah it breaks my heart how they both didn’t know just how much they meant to each other. YW never moved on and Seo in mentally collapsed.
Anyhow that was my rant.