the way youve written a bunch of nothing burger, also youve exchanged MC and ML throughout this para,,
Yes I did notice I accidentally wrote ML instead of MC, please elaborate on the ”nothing burger”? I didn’t write a lot on purpose to make it seem fancy, I just wrote what I thought of. I’m not a native English speaker so I hope adding more context helps get the point across, but I’m sorry you thought it was messy and confusing. If you clarify what you didn’t understand I’m happy to explain. If not, I don’t really understand the purpose of your comment. To make me feel stupid when I never claimed or tried to be smart? To point out to the world ”oh this person seems like they know what they’re talking about but I can see through it”?
MC has undoubtedly treated ML harshly and unfair when they were young. ML was forced to become a part of this ”big happy family” where there was greater opportunities of living a better life. While MC never wanted a brother or a new parent, ML has lost a brother and is secretly longing for that strong and unbreakable bond filled with a sense of security. MC knows that and uses it in his favor. He does warm up to ML a bit, but he’s still the child who only sees everything through his own perspective. He’s jealous of ML’s relationship with his family, to the point of being irritated at how ML doesn’t know how good he has it, while he (MC) continues to work hard because it’s his only option because he feel that he can only rely on himself in the end.
When ML finds out he’s an omega it’s like a punch in the face, like a death sentence or a label sent by life to show him that his life has been and always will be filled with a misery he can’t escape no matter how hard he works. Being an omega comes with a cap on the future due to how society works, like how instead of being seen as ”good at his job”, he’ll only ever be seen as ”good for an omega”. It puts limits to his future career and future overall. For the sake of the family, the company, and his future, the best decision is to marry ML. While ML adores him and loves him, he sees it as once again being forced to bend to someone else’s plan and adjust his life accordingly (like when he became a part of ML’s family). Although it is ”for the best”, given his situation, he can’t help but resent ML for it even though he’s done nothing wrong (again, like how he resents ML for living a good life ”free of struggle”).
When MC loses his memories, he has the chance to get to know ML as adults and knows that ML regards him as an equal and treat him as such. He doesn’t understand why of how he could’ve been unresponsive to ML’s feelings, especially since they’re so pure hearted. He feels that his past self was probably very unlikable and from what he learns it seems to be true. He begins falling in love with ML and opens up his heart, unlike in the past when we know they were more like roommates trying not to disturb each other than lovers. ML is still a pushover and weak to ML, while ML swears to himself to treat him better.
When he begin to uncover the truth about the accident and regain his memories, his fist instinct is to leave ML in the dark. At first he even suspects him, but after clearing some things up he realizes it can’t be true. Still, he treats ML as an outsider, with the excuse of protecting him by not dragging someone ”innocent” in, and in the end he continues to lean on himself only while also failing to realize that as long as it affects him, ML is dragged in and affected too because he loves him.
Now there’s a child in the picture. He loves the child and knows ML does too. He’s close to uncovering the truth and regaining all his memories, which indirectly means becoming more like his past self. While he knows ML want nothing more than to help him, he becomes scared of becoming like his past self. He doesn’t like that part of himself, how he treated ML, and is afraid that when he regains his memories ML will begin to like him less or even fall out of love with him. Fearing he’ll stay only because of the child or only continue to love him because if it.
He wants to stay as the person he thinks and feels he is, while also uncovering the truth, and that’s not possible at the same time. He knows the more he remembers, the more of his past self will become part of him, but most importantly he knows that ML knows it too. So he ends up fighting his inner self, while once again not relying on ML. Like I said before, his first instinct is always to deal with everything by himself. The person he remembers himself as is not someone who’s been nice to ML. ML remembers him in a nicer light, but he doesn’t want to become someone who treats him like that either. In the end, he ends up projecting his insecurities to ML which is both unfair and extremely hurtful. BUT they talk it out, becomes even closer to the point of being truly equals, and become a happy family. So it’s worth holding on to the end, even if it gets frustrating.