i've read the few chapter of the novel that are translated so first in the novel, they a...

i've read the few chapter of the novel that are translated

so first in the novel, they are actually brother......
In school, mc was getting confused by a delinquent guy in school for a classmate named Im jiho.
Mc then caught them being close together when he was going to change for PE...and they are rumor to be gay and together.

mc is like very homophobic (internalized homophobia lol) and was telling how dirty they were to his brother.
During this convo mc ask if he could go see him during his concert (he plays guitar ) but he didnt respond lol.
Then the night of the concert, he went to see him but the show was cancelled because the singer was a mess...so he went to his brother's studio (where he can play guitar (their dad said that if he played music he would send mc to live in america with their grandpa) and yk fuck around) he saw his brother and IM JIHO (like wtf????? he's mc classmate who's also a minor and he was yapping about him earlier????) going out his studio and mc did look around the studio to see if they did the deed, results : damp smell and freshly used condom....so yeah

anyway, after this, because of the "you are dirty too, *spat on him*" you saw in the prologue ...........the older bro starts sexually assaulting mc like forcefully kissing mc, licking his nipple and play with his dick usually when someone is knocking on the door or talking to them through the door...

and YKW mc keeps resenting older bro for fucking IM JIHO (i mean i would too lmaooo) and older bro told him he meant nothing to him (so he really did fuck him...?...but weird because mc thought it was because im jiho looks like mc but older bro doesn't remember his face WTF so did he fuck him or misunderstanding?) anyway mc was like "whattt u did to him what ur doing to me rn and u say it means nothing to u?? are u even human to think like that??".....
anyway older bro got sad lmao and went to the bathroom to self harm LMAO...so yeah, in fact... bro is doing self-harm to kill himself because he a beast for lusting over his blood related younger brother....fair enough (bitch ur SA him rn) ;( so he got loads of scar on his body

anyway he asks mc for 1 year where he could do anything to him and then he will disappear from his life and mc agreed to it.
Now im jiho keeps being cited when they do naughty stuff which piss me off, especially when it's the older bro who keeps saying things since the beginning that if hé didn't do it with mc he would go to IM JIHO...bitch please... and mc is like very jealous of im jiho so bitch pls stop it stop mentioning him

like im jiho is really haunting mc monologue and it's so annoying lamo

idk if older bro lied about doing it with im jiho because of the evidence in the studio (but he could have done it with someone else idk) or he actually was tutoring him or something but im jiho keeps being mentioned and older bro never said he didnt do it so.... he just dirty lmaooooooooo for that and for lusting for his younger brother lmaooooo bro is a pedophile incest rapist

anyway mc does lust over his older brother, because one time when he was a kid or just younger he was hidden under a desk and older brother came and started jacking off....mc saw it all.........MC WAS REPULSED AND THOUGHT OF MASTURBATION AS SHAMEFUL AND DISGUSTING...(but he did rethink of it a few time when he's turned on by older brother) so I think mc is more like deeply sexually traumatized by that and his brain is confused or something because how the hell would u lust over ur blood relative..............
+ also when older bro was SAd him at first he was digusted like really digusted but he then started to embrace his "feelings" for him (he a victim..)

BUT i think it's not love but trauma because if u couple that with the fact that older bro is self harming (like mc is the reason older bro is self harming and older bro could used this to manipulate mc) mc is more like emotionally attached to older bro since he was the one who basically raised him (instead of the father..) and suddenly stop caring for him (he felt abandoned)

anyway reading was scary .....

I read all of this in 8 chapterq guys..