Beautifully said, my father was never around. Roughly 2-3 years ago he had the nerve to message me on Facebook to ask for money, after I told him no he blocked me. Sometimes I wonder how I could differ if I had at least one male figure in my life. My mom always does her best but I can tell everything gets overwhelming, when I was around 15 I started to become the second parental figure. Now I’m 21 with a whole lot more to take care of, including taking care of my family. Hugs to u and everyone else who only wanted love from someone
It's usually the beautiful yet unreachable things in our childhood that end up haunting us. Never suffered physical abuse or any of the sorts, but once I look back at all those years where I grew by myself, sometimes I wondered if my parents ever raised me like "other" families with love and words of affirmation, I wouldn't crave love demonstrations while being unable to express those myself.
I didn’t expect to get hit with my truths like this on a Sunday, gd.
TD: I lost my dad two years ago, back when I was 20 and I had a lot of sht left unsaid. While he wasn’t anywhere close to the mess JJK’s dad was, he was very keen on corporal discipline and insulting to whip his kids into shape. Dumbss was a personal favorite of his. 20 years of being his daughter and I never heard a “good job kiddo” or “I love you” from him. He wasn’t big on physical affection either, at the most all I got was a hug from him when my dog passed away. I still mourn him because he was the only figure I could ever call a dad, but every once in a while I sob in my dreams over his death and wake up gasping for air. There were times I felt there wasn’t a point in living and felt numb to everything. I was too chicken to be a street rat because I’d only ever been a “good kid” my whole life. My mom had always been absent due to him being abusive towards her in multiple ways, and she became even more absent after she lost her husband of 25 years. She’d dump all this sht my dad did to her onto me whenever I said I missed my dad but would come sobbing to me while I’d be doing hw or chores and said she missed him. The day he passed I felt like I lost two parents instead of one and I’ve been on my own since. Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to have a parent I can call home. Valid shit, JJK. His ass should still apologize tho. While he didn’t ask to get hurt the way he did, he’s an adult and has to work on his things if he doesn’t want to wind up alone. KD was just some poor guy that got hurt by JJK bc JJK is too scared to admit he’s hurt too.
TLDR: JJK’s hurt is valid, but it doesn’t mean he gets to sneak back into KD’s heart without a sincere apology and KD’s forgiveness