LONG SPOILER AHEAD

Everything goes downhill from here. In stories similar to this, the ml usually begs the mc to forgive their bullshit, but Sion.... is a crazy motherfucker. They will fight a lot. Spoilers ahead (also, please take note that I'm a bad story teller, and and I have a bad memory)

1. They fought. Sunwoo bashed Sion's head with a chair (it scarred) and beat his face. This is where we currently at.

2. They stayed together again because that is what Sion wants. But Mc hates Sion, he treats Sion coldly. Although at one point, Jaeyoung advised him to stop being stubborn and use his head. And there MC thought of dumping Sion someday.

3. Sunwoo and Youngjin meets secretly which became his breather. They played games, and even cried together. But then Sion found out about it and he got mad. He gives no fuck that Youngjin is just a friend, he wants Mc's attention to only him. Anyways they fight then MC said about his plans of dumping Sion, and returned what Sion said about him before 'Just thinking isn't a crime'. Because he did not dumped Sion yet like Sion didn't sleep with him for the bet. But that made Sion mad.
“Right. Just thinking isn’t a crime.”
“But I can’t help but hate you, whether you betray me or not, whether your thoughts turn into actions or not. But Yun Seonwoo, you aren’t like that. You’ve already…”
“Maybe it’s less unfair to do something worth hating if you’re going to be hated anyway.”

And then Sion grabbed MC's hair, hit his knee so MC kneeled, and told him to suck his dick :). Then mc said he'll do it in exchange for Sion disappearing from his life. Then Sion got mad for treating this lightly. And therefore, "Just suck it once and throw it away? Who do you think you are?""If I'm going to fulfill your wish, I have to do it right. Sucking it won't be enough.""If you're going to act like a rag, do it right."

Sunwoo said that he regrets defying Shinju. If he slept with Shinju then he wouldn't have to meet Sion. Then they said really really low blows. I was so gagged reading their convo.

Sunwoo: "But what can you do? From now on, you'll just keep being discarded all your life. Plenty are dazzled by your exterior, but once they know who you really are, they'll drop you like I did."
"Do you know why you're scared of being discarded? Because you've been discarded all your life. That's why you have no real friends, and even your parents despise you."
"Hasn't anyone loved you but me?"
"That's why you're clinging to me. You want to transfer your misery to me."
"I'm just saying what I see. You came to me whimpering after being beaten by your dad. You told me yourself that you were a bastard. Are you still getting hit? Poor bastard."

Sion: "You... what makes you different? You were discarded by your parents, too."
"One kills themselves, leaving behind their child, and the other sets up another family and just sends money once a month, aren't they your parents? Who are you to judge anyone?"
"Different how? From what I see, we're the same. Stop pretending."
"What good is growing up loved? Now you have no hill to lean on."
"Do you think you have a hill to lean on? A bastard child."

Anyways, this arc ends with Sion saying he will not like Sunwoo anymore.

4. The next day, Sion starts a rumor by talking loudly in class with Sunwoo about mc's hickeys and was it made by Youngjin (bastard, its his), that mc's a slut, and he begged Sion to fuck him. That rumor then spread and people started talking about how mc is a slut, faggot, gay. Then one time, Mc got into a verbal fight with some guys in a restroom. Sion then appeared, made the guys gtfo and for some reason he ended up jerking off MC......... Anyways, MC got into a fight again when some guy spit on his food tray. MC poured food on the guy and bashed the tray in his head and punched his friends. After that chaos in the cafeteria, no one really bothered mc again. MC also learned that Sion crushed those guys. But lately, MC feels really tired.

'Still, waves of deep lethargy would wash over me now and then. I became sluggish both at school and at home. Whenever I tried to eat, I’d keep thinking about that white saliva. The spit that had landed on my tray. The liquid that had dripped from Park Sion’s fingers. It made my stomach turn. Thankfully, even if I didn’t eat, I didn’t get hungry. Instead, I just kept getting sleepier.'

MC then sleeps a lot, eat less and feel really lethargic. But he also don't like the attention he's getting and even vomits. Sion then made him go to therapy. So mc has to take anti depressant meds.

TW Warning !!!!!!: Su!c!de
5. They are together again. (Pls dont ask me why is Sion clinging on Mc again, idk, he's so confusing). After taking the meds, MC became a bit better. He started cleaning his room, and went out to buy some books... GED and a german book... because he's planning to drop out and go to his mom in Germany. But then, fuck it, Sion found out about his plan, tore his passport and they fought again. Mc said he doesn't want Sion's love, but his understanding. But Sion don't want to understand Sunwoo because if he does, he has to let MC go. But he can't live without MC, he'll die. So MC said die. "What u cant do it? Weakling." So Sion slashed himself(palm), MC took the cutter away.

Fast forward because i forgot what happened in between. But MC called his mom, but then he learned that his Mom is pregnant. And mc feels he won't belong there even if he goes with his mom. The next day, everything feels like shit, he hit his gums, his button fell off, and on his way to school, he fell down the stairs. He limped and cried on the way back to his house. After some time, Sion went to his house because he's not in school. Mc cried and cried and cried. T-T. "I can't go to Mom." "Mom seems happy without me." "There's nowhere... to go back too.."

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There is something that should never be broken or shattered for me, or perhaps for all of us. But it is so fragile that it often cracks. Sometimes, those cracks become growth rings that testify to our development, but not all pain can be given such grand meaning. Some wounds shatter what should never be broken and collapse what should never be destroyed.

I cried like a child for a long time. I cried and cried until my voice was hoarse. Then, I collapsed, exhausted. Si-on Park gently pulled me away as my sobs subsided. I saw his lips were tightly set. I also saw his pale complexion and confused eyes.

...

"It's hard."
"I'm going to stop everything now."
"I'm going to go to Dad."

....

"You know that if you commit suicide, you'll go to hell, right? I'll kill you. I'll kill you and then I'll follow you."

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Seonwoo nods slighty and Sion grabbed his neck but his hand keep slipping. He would give strength and then lose it. Then Sion cried and hugged MC.

"Fuck I don't want too. Fuck. I can't do it." Sion referring to letting MC go.

"I don't want to...." "Please Seonwoo, please. This sucks.""If I let you go....""Will you live?"

And end of that fifth arc. Sion finally let MC go.

6. Last, ending arc. Im going to shorten it because this comment is becoming too longgg.


Basically, time and space healed them. They don't talk to each other anymore. They finally became seniors, he's in a different class with Sion. The rumors also died down since everyone is a senior and they're all busy with their own lives. MC finally becomes better. He hangs out with Youngjin and his friends. Sometimes when he's out of the building, he can see Sion staring at him and he stares back. But they still don't talk. One time, Sion asked Mc if they could talk. Its not a fight this time, but heart to heart talk. They said sorry and thank you. Sion said that MC looks better, he's scared that he'll forget him. MC said he won't. Sion asked if they are really over. He wants to wait for MC. "It's ok if it takes a long time, just tell me its not over." Mc said he cant promise, but if Sion is strong enough to not be hurt even if he cant keep his promise, they can talk again. MC also made Sion promise that he should eat and live well until they meet again.

Summer break, Seonwoo enrolled to summer classes in hopes that he'll be able to Sion. There was 2 times that Sion sleepwalks into MC's house (as a side effect of sleeping pills). One time, Mc saw Sion sleeping in a classroom, he was reading 'Essay of understanding'. Fast forward because I forgot again. Mc's appendix burst, he called Sion (didnt answer, he was showering), 911, and got taken to the hospital. Fast forward again Im sorry. They took the college exams, MC went to his house, they talked again. They get back together again. Ik shit explanation for the ending T-T, but I'm really bad at explaining their feelings. So much stuff happened and realization in this chapter tho.