Real. Or like "I smell like rotten eggs and everything horrid in the world everyone's looking at me" so you wash and take a bath several times but you dont even smell
Or when intrusive thoughts take over your head and you cant stop it, it's so awful because you don't really believe those or think those so it makes you guilty and disgusted of yourself. I have to thank and ask forgiveness from God every few minutes or else demons and my dead love ones will take me (I'm not even religious what the hell)
OCD is exhausting af. Idk how to feel about this either but I'm sorry you and I and many others have to go through this stuff
(I still haven't checked past the first few pages but we'll see lol)
As a person with OCD, idk how to feel about this. Often times OCD isn't "clean clean clean!!!" It's more like... "oh my fucking God someone's gonna come into my house and kill me+my loved ones if I don't do this specific thing at this specific time" or my most favorite thought to have! "This meat isn't actually cow meat or pig meat, it's human flesh, oh god, I'm eating human flesh, I'm gonna vomit oh my fucking God I'm a cannibal" I know it's just a stupid trope, but these tropes are what make stereotypes about people with certain mental illnesses so big.