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so mb this is for 2 mangas but if anyone knows lmk
1. uke has agoraphobia (basically like an otaku), never leaves the house, then seme comes around, helps him out, and finds out his parents died in a boat/car accident, cant remember which. then the uke is all good for a while with the help of the seme, gets diagnosed with cancer, and dies. pretty sure this was a yaoi.
2. i cant remember the plot but i know the end, the uke escapes the psyc ward, goes to the ocean, takes his shoes off, and walks into the ocean. he never returns. pretty sure this was a shonen ai

both of these were full color, please lmk if you know either one :)