I'm at chapter 3... I feel really bad for Shizuno. She got such shit fucking guys and a bad experience with sex before. Just because the guy said he loved her she was naive but she's young so she let them hurt her. I'm so sad she had to go through that and I'm glad she finally met a nice guy even though he's obviously inexperienced with both sex and relationships. I felt she was using sex as a way of self harm for not feeling enough for her partners she let them do whatever because they "love" her even if she didn't like it or want it but she had to punish herself and give herself because she felt she had to be of some value/give something back. And since a woman's experience with objectification and sexualization starts literally when you start developing sex characteristics (as young as like 9) you get conditioned and I can relate so hard to her as a person who developed breast and curves the first in my environment like school and youngest in the family :(
I'm at chapter 3... I feel really bad for Shizuno. She got such shit fucking guys and a bad experience with sex before. Just because the guy said he loved her she was naive but she's young so she let them hurt her. I'm so sad she had to go through that and I'm glad she finally met a nice guy even though he's obviously inexperienced with both sex and relationships. I felt she was using sex as a way of self harm for not feeling enough for her partners she let them do whatever because they "love" her even if she didn't like it or want it but she had to punish herself and give herself because she felt she had to be of some value/give something back. And since a woman's experience with objectification and sexualization starts literally when you start developing sex characteristics (as young as like 9) you get conditioned and I can relate so hard to her as a person who developed breast and curves the first in my environment like school and youngest in the family :(