I want Juyeon to forget about Jiwook and like destroy me, ironically his face not my type ...

I want Juyeon to forget about Jiwook and like destroy me, ironically his face not my type but his personality and everything else how indifferent & cruel he is yet still caring, I want him, I think I am masochist cuz I always see myself from uke perspective, this second time I felt seme was extra hot after blood bank story eric, I am probably never gonna find guys like this in real life cuz I only attract ugly losers who want me to be the dominant one