Yapping Part 10

Chapter 52-54: These chapters showed that Sangwoo actually loved his father more than his mother, but his fear of her was bigger than the love he had for his father. He said in the last panels of chapter 53, “I'm serious. I love you”. I think there were 2 things that appealed to me; 1.his expression, & 2.his words directed at Bum. Every action and word he exchanged with Bum was like a reminder to his childhood memories. What I perceived from these was, either he still saw his mother in Bum and said those words, or he tried to escape from the clutches of his mother by convincing himself that he loved Bum. I'd vote for the latter.

The root of all his problems led to his mother. Everything began when his mother got jealous over him and tried to kill him. Then, she cheated on her husband, sexually abused her son, and poisoned her husband's food. Suffering from a mental illness didn't justify her doing all these when her husband and son clearly loved her. That's why Sangwoo wasn't that bothered by his father's violence than his mother's screams. He knew his mother deserved those beatings. She had a loving family but still did all that shit. I guess that's why Sangwoo said that if Bum was a girl, he wouldn't be alive, because all girls reminded him of that ugly side of his mother.