ML is shitty throughout... NOVEL SPOILERS

NOVEL SPOILERS
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currently reading the novel and honestly… Choi Sungbin (seme / blue hair) has zero redeeming qualities. he treats Yang Juwon (uke / brown hair) like absolute shit, only using him for his sexual needs (tho they don’t actually sleep together until much later) while still constantly fooling around with girls. there was even one time he almost pressured Juwon into a threesome with one of those girls, but Juwon backed off at the last moment.

Sungbin *does* decide to date Juwon, but only because he finds him “convenient.” basically, Juwon is just an emotional punching bag for him ☠. Sungbin always vents his anger and frustration on him, even forces him to buy stuff for him (despite Sungbin being way richer), knowing Juwon will cave to whatever he asks. he does feel a little guilty at times, but never actually does anything about it. and whenever Juwon does something that annoys him, Sungbin threatens to break up with him.

but honestly, I can’t say Juwon is that likeable either. he’s such a pushover. he actually found out about Sungbin through his ex-gf—she broke up with Juwon because she fell for Sungbin, and it got so bad she started obsessing over her looks. Juwon didn’t really *love* his ex like that, but he did care about her. he felt guilty seeing her so miserable and heartbroken because of Sungbin… yet still couldn’t stop himself from falling for him. the wild part is they barely even interacted before (like once maybe??), but he still had this hopeless crush.

eventually Sungbin does start to “soften” towards Juwon, but I’m using that word very loosely bc he still acts like such a bitch. he knows he’s starting to care about Juwon, but denies it like his life depends on it. I guess they’re trying to make him a tsundere or whatever, but it’s done horribly. I just wish Juwon had an actual backbone . the whole thing kinda reminds me of *Love History Caused by Willful Negligence* but way tamer, and with less complex characters lol.

I’m still in the middle of the novel, but so far… no chasing/groveling arc for the seme. and honestly, I’m not even hoping for it—it feels super unlikely with the way this novel is going.