Responses
i feel the same as you do. I feel like I'm just living because time is passing. Like nothing I'm doing is what I want to do. The things I love make me feel just as anxious as they make me happy. But I think that kind of life is living too. Eating because you don't want to feel hungry, sleeping because you don't want to feel tired, that too has a purpose. I hope we both find something that really makes us feel alive but living for the sake of living is not that bad.
i've also been dealing with a lot of existential dread about my life. i'm only 25 and i have no hobbies i can stick to or friends to spend time with and it's been really killing me that my life has gone nowhere since graduating hs. i dropped out of college bc it was too expensive and bc i didn't know what to do with my life and moved out of my home state to get away from how suffocating it was there. i know there's more to life than just the every day mundanities. becoming an adult in the state of the current world is both confusing and terrifying.
im glad at least they have each other.