Portray of depression at it finest

I never thought i would relate to a character this much, the facade he had, the way he feared how nakajou would view him, how lost he felt, how much he was afraid of his own self, made me cry, the panel where he confessed that all he dreamed of is de*th, i cried cause i know this feeling and it just felt unbearably familiar, if you related to it too, i hope we heal one day