I used to make fun of the ml and think who in the hell would think like ml ain't no way ir...

I used to make fun of the ml and think who in the hell would think like ml ain't no way irl people r like that especially bl top, but woah i suppressed my expectations I am exactly like the top of bl manga, I am manipulative, I avoid being attachment, and I am scared of being hurt (going in relationship) mind u this is my first time in my 21 years. And the guy is green forest