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I think it’s a lot of compounding reasons. He’s confused and super disoriented from his memory loss, he’s not 100% sure he can trust anyone, he lives a shitty life with lister tormenting him and punishing anyone he gets close to, he doesn’t want to get his hopes up with the ML, etc.
I don't understand why the MC is self-sabotaging so hard. What is his reason?
I'm not trying to fault him, so don't just come defend him blindly. I genuinely do not understand his logic for doing it. He knows what's going to happen to him if he doesn't get help but he refuses to get help and I don't know why.