
I wish I could answer your question but till this day I don’t know why ? I don’t even remember the state of mind I was in nor the context ? It’s like my brain has completely erased that traumatic experience ? The only thing I remember is quite literally FORGETTING to release myself till it was almost too late. Not bc I was gonna pee on myself but bc I almost permanently ruined my bladder. Absolutely mental

RIGHT ???? Like the pain isn’t something you can describe you just have to feel it bc words will never do it justice!!!!! It’s like feeling your body abandon you !!! Not only is it painful but boy is it long before you recover ??? That’s when you realize how serious it actually was, when your body takes a while to heal
I actually once held my pee for 48 hours bc I forgot to pee and let me tell you the pain once you’ve released everything is HORRIBLE. Idk how he even did to even walk after, I was bedridden for several hours bc my lower body was on fire