God this hit me deep as I started reading it was reminding me of my relationship I was their third, joining their relationship of 8 years I fell in love with her but not her bf and it was my fault for going into the relationship knowing that I could never love him but I loved her so much I held everything in, I always felt left out and left behind because they already have so much history and deeper connections no matter how much they reassured me, he was always gonna be closer to her than id be and my friends were always telling me to leave because i was drowning in the relationship literally ruining me but i never noticed or part of me didn’t want to bc of my love for her but reading this is making me realize it all now so reading this was scary confusing and understanding at the same time and had me very anxious getting to the end of it, the few last chapters had me crying because that exactly what happened and actually seeing it made me so sad and feeling pathetic bc I could never say no to him because I was as always thinking he’d go running to her that I didn’t want to have sex with him so I was always scared of being alone with him or having to do it with him alone or in general I hated that I held back and didn’t speak up or make the right choice for my wellbeing and we were together for four years….. this story just opened my eyes and made me realize how horrible of a relationship I put myself in
God this hit me deep as I started reading it was reminding me of my relationship
I was their third, joining their relationship of 8 years I fell in love with her but not her bf and it was my fault for going into the relationship knowing that I could never love him but I loved her so much I held everything in, I always felt left out and left behind because they already have so much history and deeper connections no matter how much they reassured me, he was always gonna be closer to her than id be and my friends were always telling me to leave because i was drowning in the relationship literally ruining me but i never noticed or part of me didn’t want to bc of my love for her but reading this is making me realize it all now so reading this was scary confusing and understanding at the same time and had me very anxious getting to the end of it, the few last chapters had me crying because that exactly what happened and actually seeing it made me so sad and feeling pathetic bc I could never say no to him because I was as always thinking he’d go running to her that I didn’t want to have sex with him so I was always scared of being alone with him or having to do it with him alone or in general I hated that I held back and didn’t speak up or make the right choice for my wellbeing and we were together for four years….. this story just opened my eyes and made me realize how horrible of a relationship I put myself in