Now I’m not here to beat a dead horse and bitch bout it when really, there’s a lot of other people that do that already. And to be very frank, I do like the story.
HOWEVER, the amount of sexual assault in this story can twist ur stomach a lot even as a seasoned BL reader because AN ALARMING AMOUNT is drawn. It gives too much nitty gritty details and it becomes extremely hard to stomach sometimes so FAIR WARNING. WARNING WARNING ****SA IN FIRST FEW CHAPTERS AND CONTINUING. Done by gang assaults (to MC and third party) and rape by other characters who are not the ML to the MC (main antagonists) And THESE ARE DONE DRAWN AS FULL ON SCENES SO HEED THE WARNINGS!
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Anyway, aside from that, it makes sense narratively because the setting is horrendous and the story sets itself for for a dark tell - personally I don’t like the SA scenes really who does, but I did really like the story.
The main characters are compelling as fuck, and you want to root for them to just cop a win one of these chapters. Each interaction with them is cute and stuff until it gets to the more serious parts and even then they genuinely yearn for each other so much.
They do fucked up shit that they think it’s better for the other and continue to strive despite the hardships they face
NOW WITH SPOILERS
My god, I came back to reread this since I forgot entirely bout it and now I remember why I wiped it from my memory. The amount of fucked up shit must’ve been why I couldn’t remember and ALSO becuz I stopped reading at the “end” of the story and didn’t reach the side stories or epilogue so I GENUINELY THOUGHT THEY HAD DIED.
As I reread it, I kept getting glimpses of the fucked up shit that made me stop and recoil.
That POS garbage ass mf villain guy, FUUUCK HIM. He comes in all savior complex, fucks the mom FUCKS HER SON and then proceed to PIMP HIM OUT??? Fucking Christ, I felt my blood boil all over again and he just kept getting worse.
the weird incest twins and the gang assault scenes with one of them and the MC and then the brother? Dude my stomach was fucking hurting, I just skipped them chapters, didn’t even read idgaf if it’s plot relevant I can take context clues.
I was so fucking satisfied when they said that fucking garbage ass pos died at the end I was cheering and honestly, I didn’t mind that the MC had lost his memories since he had to deal with so much fucked up shit. But then them falling into the ice had me screaming the first time I read it. I was so upset.
And now I finally got to what I hadn’t read, the side stories. Where tf do I even begin? I was in anguish, hurting, and happy all at once. HATED that the MX thought the ML was that POS, but I get why the ML let him think so. It was so nice to see him what he was before the trauma and rebuild his relationship even tho ML was grieving their past and trying his hardest. I sometimes think maybe it would’ve been better had he not remembered but MC was tough from the beginning so I’m happy they at least got their happy ending.
Now I’m not here to beat a dead horse and bitch bout it when really, there’s a lot of other people that do that already. And to be very frank, I do like the story.
HOWEVER, the amount of sexual assault in this story can twist ur stomach a lot even as a seasoned BL reader because AN ALARMING AMOUNT is drawn.
It gives too much nitty gritty details and it becomes extremely hard to stomach sometimes so FAIR WARNING. WARNING WARNING
****SA IN FIRST FEW CHAPTERS AND CONTINUING. Done by gang assaults (to MC and third party) and rape by other characters who are not the ML to the MC (main antagonists)
And THESE ARE DONE DRAWN AS FULL ON SCENES SO HEED THE WARNINGS!
_____________
Anyway, aside from that, it makes sense narratively because the setting is horrendous and the story sets itself for for a dark tell - personally I don’t like the SA scenes really who does, but I did really like the story.
The main characters are compelling as fuck, and you want to root for them to just cop a win one of these chapters. Each interaction with them is cute and stuff until it gets to the more serious parts and even then they genuinely yearn for each other so much.
They do fucked up shit that they think it’s better for the other and continue to strive despite the hardships they face
NOW WITH SPOILERS
My god, I came back to reread this since I forgot entirely bout it and now I remember why I wiped it from my memory. The amount of fucked up shit must’ve been why I couldn’t remember and ALSO becuz I stopped reading at the “end” of the story and didn’t reach the side stories or epilogue so I GENUINELY THOUGHT THEY HAD DIED.
As I reread it, I kept getting glimpses of the fucked up shit that made me stop and recoil.
That POS garbage ass mf villain guy, FUUUCK HIM. He comes in all savior complex, fucks the mom FUCKS HER SON and then proceed to PIMP HIM OUT??? Fucking Christ, I felt my blood boil all over again and he just kept getting worse.
the weird incest twins and the gang assault scenes with one of them and the MC and then the brother? Dude my stomach was fucking hurting, I just skipped them chapters, didn’t even read idgaf if it’s plot relevant I can take context clues.
I was so fucking satisfied when they said that fucking garbage ass pos died at the end I was cheering and honestly, I didn’t mind that the MC had lost his memories since he had to deal with so much fucked up shit. But then them falling into the ice had me screaming the first time I read it. I was so upset.
And now I finally got to what I hadn’t read, the side stories.
Where tf do I even begin? I was in anguish, hurting, and happy all at once.
HATED that the MX thought the ML was that POS, but I get why the ML let him think so. It was so nice to see him what he was before the trauma and rebuild his relationship even tho ML was grieving their past and trying his hardest.
I sometimes think maybe it would’ve been better had he not remembered but MC was tough from the beginning so I’m happy they at least got their happy ending.
Overall a hard read but a decent one.