Gurl I feel each and every ounce of what you just said. I def also went through that roller coaster of emotions cause of how fucked up the plot was. For me tho he’s definitely not a redeemable character considering what he did, but for what it’s worth, i’m at leasts a bit happy that he did regret and tried to repent for what he did cause it was def fucked up.
The suicide was the cherry on top. I hope all horrible people like him go through that kind of guilt.
Yass gurll
I’m almost caught up and I just had to vent - no matter how much guilt he feels over what he did to the omega, all the fucking shit he put him through is just too big to live and let die.
I feel like it’s easy to forget or just let it go becuz the omega does and the story progresses in a way that encapsulates his growth but…
Sorry this is about to be a mess.
Jesus Christ it’s hard to feel bad for him even by chapter 60ish, I think post backstory and stuff, even then becuz you just think bout alllllll thenfucked up shit he did and ALMOST did to the omega and it’s like, woo if it wasn’t for the slight themes of purity / virginity / ownership then he would’ve let the omega go through that in that one scene with all those ppl huh?
And consequently every thing he did before and AFTER STILL linger - so really even if u have a shred of knowledge of why he’s like that, it’s like you were a horrible garbage ass excuse of a person.
And that’s not even to account for the fact his change just doesn’t even make sense? Like all of a sudden BAM He’s in love BAM he’s changing BAM he sees the omega as a person.
Like what HAPPENED? Did I miss something? Kid you not, the obsession between the leads like red Mansion make more sense then the switch up here.
HE HAS SUCH A STRONG IDEAL THAT OMEGAS ARE OBJECTS AND PROPERTY. SOCIETY IN THIS WORLD HAS SUCH A STRONG DEHUMANIZATION OF OMEGAS - so his switch up is just SOOO random?
Maybe, maybe if u dig real deep u can take some contextual clues and pull them out to make it into a cohesive reason - maybe he wanted to be loved all along and hid it before his genuine demon disguise - and it still doesn’t give any good reason to switch up the way he did post confession.
And ok POST season 2 - it’s like he’s an entirely reformed, post recovery, post therapy, post rehab character. It’s like great for your mental state long run sure, but it’s also like HOW HOW DIDNTHIS HAPPEN? R u gonna tell me he was always like this? Fuckijg lies. I just don’t get it.
It’s like ok ok I’m reading this as much as I can with an open mind and yes change is always possible, even for the worst of people, but I just can’t fathom how quickly he changed.
It’s not even about the pace of it, it’s just one minute he’s a dick and then next he’s not.
The entire time he’s always flipped flopped on how he treated the omega sure, but not like that? He’d toss a bone here and there and then get possessive, but one minutes he’s giving the bare minimum and the next he’s like WHOA WHAT A TIME TO HE ALIVE AND LOVE. LOVE LOVE LOVE. LOVE ME. OH I DONT WANNA HURT U. SAD. DEPRESSION.
WIFE GONE. MISS WIFE. REGRET.
and he’s suddenly a better man than he’s ever been. Not even his back story really makes sense into his change it’s just infuriating to read it all in one sitting really.
Maybe if I had more time in between to stew on the change like the weeks it took for the story to come out, yeah, then ig I’d be like oh he’s changing how greatttt. But no I’m reading it in one go and it really feels like night and day.
Sincently though it’s then enjoyable to read. It gives u such whiplash from the binge read when the alpha changes. Still again, my gripe is that the beginning was just SO FUCKING STRONG, that it’s almost impossible to read without thinking bout it at least a few times. I’m glad he changes and the story doesn’t stay harsh.
I just hope it sticks to the fact he’s going to have to repent for what he did more than just a happy ending with the babies, but we’ll see.
NOW this is all to say it’s a decent (?) story, it’s doing its job of getting u hooked with its plot, but Christ all mighty, I had to say a prayer too every fucking chapter.