At first I'm like that too, in 2gether, that's why I got so broken when bright got a gf (I don't like him anymore) and I love Win. Now I always remind myself to limit my shipping to the characters only but I can't help myself sometimes cause I keep on seeing edits (/TДT)/. That's why I suggest don't watch fan edits about their interactions in rl cause it will only feed your delulu mind and eventually make u broken-hearted if they get a gf/bf in rl or you come to know they are straight and just doing fan service. Most of bl actors do fan service exaggerately to the point that it's believable.
When i first came across irl BL series, I would swear up and down this actor was in love with that actor. But at the end of the day, just remind yourself they're actors. They're career is pretending to be someone they aren't to entertain people. The guy who plays Freddie Krueger isn't actually him lololol! And that's how i ended up getting out of that phase~ So i wouldn't worry about it too much, you'll move on in time~
Yes . I now believing that are all fan services and also some fans are also toxic and forcing BL actors to be together or they will blame them as much as they can on internet until they make fan service. I feel sorry for both sides than fan wanting them to see together and actors feeling too . I should just happy here reading Yaoi from the start.

Does anyone ever feel regret about shipping real people, like BL actors? I’ve been reading BL novels and manga since 2017, but I was never interested in watching BL series until this year. Once I started, I got really into it—and began shipping the actors a lot, completely caught up in the hype. But since I’m still new to this fandom world, I don’t really understand things like fan service. Now I’m not even sure how to properly support them as a fan, especially when there are constant fan wars between solo fans and CPF fans. I never realized it could be so complicated. I’m sorry if I said anything wrong or misleading. I just wanted to share my thoughts here because I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this topic. Please don’t mind me.