Just wanted to share ;/

I feel sad.

Sad for myself, mostly. Because as someone who feels everything so loudly—who gets shaken by even the smallest things—it’s exhausting to have to mute that part of me just to keep some kind of balance, especially in a relationship. It sucks being the one who always feels things so deeply, even the things others call “small.”

I want to talk about it. I want to rant, to unpack, to listen and be listened to. But it feels like I have to hold back—like I have to stop being so bothered just to keep someone close. Not because they told me to, but because I chose to. Because I want to stay.

And that’s what hurts the most. Knowing that even if this person cares, they might never really see me for who I am. It’s such a lonely feeling—to realize the only person who can truly understand you is yourself. I hate having to carry all of this alone, but sharing it doesn’t seem to change anything either. And that’s... frustrating.

I don’t want to accept things as they are. But I guess I have to.

And honestly, it’s eating me alive.

Emotions are so hard to handle :/ and I truly believe I'm not the only one going through such crisis lmao, js wanted to vent because idk, it's nice to share a part of myself knowing no one here KNOWS me, it's like a clinical satisfaction idk I'm J's yapping