You literally took the words right out of my mouth. Thank you. I feel so deeply and badly for Hyesung, he was forced into everything and never given a choice yet he still is there and present, raising his children with love. Seeing his tolerance and willing to forgive everything that happened, try to move on only for straight disrespect to be thrown in his face by Dojin and Byul. His very explicit wish to not have that hag in his life be disrespected and now blamed for a situation where HE was the victim…It just makes me so extremely angry.
I hate that the author won’t let him be free, I wish more than anything he could’ve gotten away. Nothing about his and Dojins relationship is consensual, if he had been given the chance he would’ve left.The fact I already know this is definitely leading up to His fuckass mother getting a redemption arc when she doesn’t deserve it makes me so mad.
I normally write rambles and comments that are a bit more soft-toned and unbiased because I prefer taking care of my reading skills and being able to read critically but this... This chapter really hit a nerve. It pissed me off so much fuck.
"You thought of getting rid of me too," Yes, because Hyesung was raped and coerced. Would YOU want to keep a child conceived absent of love, more so AGAINST your autonomy? Literally, Hyesung's poverty was weaponized in making that contract. Your parents weren't even married, never even went through Hi Hello How are you first before conceiving you.
I knew it was eventually going to be brought up that Hyesung did abandon Byul, but he literally abandoned him as a baby in just a span of few months and went back, you know why?
Because Hyesung and Dojin was bonded even before forming a proper relationship. Because Hyesung knew first and foremost what it meant and how it felt to be abandoned and raised neglectfully.
Hyesung, who 1. Only knew he was an Omega after living his entire life as an alpha 2. Bonded without even understanding the implications and lifelong consequences and responsibilities of a bonding 3. Has not even figured out what he wants to do in his life, 4. Has lived his entire dogshit life being treated like a hopeless idiot with no future.
Hyesung was baby trapped in this family, bond trapped into this relationship. He was going to die if he never went back to Dojin, he never even had the money to live on his own and look after his health while Dojin could live in his wealth as a single father.
Let's not forget, Hyesung was enabled by Heeso to hide and run away. Hyesung was already so anxious and gullible, and running away felt right when someone enables him.
If I were a child in that circumstance, I could never blame my parents for never wanting me in the first place, but the fact that they owned it up, raised the child with all the love and support, how could I ever have the heart to hurt them? How could I ever hurt my gullible, vulnerable parent who has done everything to repent and be a better person each and every day?
"I know everything, that grandma abandoned you." I'm sorry but it was never just that. Hyesung was abandoned to an abusive father while that deadbeat hag left Hyesung to start a new family. It psychologically and emotionally STUNTED Hyesung to the point he was a street dolt, so fucking stupid he got scammed into sex work.
Comparing that hag to Hyesung who RETURNED, OWNED IT UP, AND ACTUALLY RAISED THE KID HE NEVER PLANNED? You won't easily see a rape victim raising their own child with genuine love. In fact, it's hard to critically see Hyesung be "in love" with Dojin when the majority of his attachment was because of the bond. If this wasn't omegaverse, Hyesung's feelings would've played out completely different.
Fuck this stupid ass rape apologist family. Money sure does fuck you up in the head! Hyesung spoiled him with too much love, and this brat thinks he's some hotshot know-it-all.
In the end, Byul will always be his father's child.
I hope Hyesung files a divorce (99% sure it's not gonna happen). I feel like throwing up in rage.