I can’t read the old chapters without crying

I don't think i can read it again , aeroc suffered so much

He really did suffer a lot I thought I could reread it since he’s happy in the new chapters, I had to stop because I kept on crying

I've read it 2 times before the release of 2nd season, but now i don't think i can handle it. I even read the novel just too spoil my self and know if he had a happy ending