The fuuuck

Yes, it’s exactly because they both want to monopolize each other. In simple terms, it’s because they’re both tops. Initially, Suzuki wouldn’t even think of looking at another man; he was as straight as a ruler, a textbook playboy who only had eyes for women. That is, until he met Sugiki.

Sugiki, on the other hand, is the complete opposite—refined, disciplined, and used to being in control both on and off the dance floor. Yet when he meets Suzuki, something inside him shifts. He’s fascinated by Suzuki’s raw passion and recklessness, feelings that blur the line between rivalry and attraction. But as their power struggle intensifies, so does the tension between them. Both are too proud to yield, and instead of finding balance, they clash. Ultimately, their relationship crumbles not because of a lack of feeling but because neither could bring themselves to surrender, not even to the person they cared for most.

Ohh! So is the “another guy” Suzuki referring to, Norman? He was able to be passionate and horny with him thanks to Sugiki? I don’t know about you, but that just feels icky. This all could have been somewhat avoided with a good talk, but I guess that’s an idealistic view.

Also referring to this: In chapter 38, what does Suzuki mean when he says: “Sugiki completely changed my identity these last few months, I never imagined I’d get all passionate and horny over another guy.”

And honestly all that build up just for him to sleep with a man after thinking he wouldn’t, is just…no. Maybe if it was with Sugiki, the one that changed his view and sexuality, it would have been more impactful and less damaging on my perspective. All that sparkles and shit for him to have sex with Norman.

I do understand that they both did it for the sake of some distraction, but it’s just not it. It is just disappointing. Yes, Sugiki did also fuck two or one person like a dog in heat, but that’s because he has already done that even before meeting Suzuki.

I just don’t think I like how his first time with a man was done so casually. It’s not simply that he had sex with another that makes it icky, it’s how casual and easy it was for him to lay with another. But then again, it all boils down to dominance. He wasn’t able to be dominant with Sugiki, so I guess it’s just like fucking women in a way. He did have sex with women before, right? He was just not gay.

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Thanks for explaining by the way, much appreciated for the response. So how will they deal with the whole “I will be the top!” “No, me!” once they reunite? So funny.

2) I forgot to mention my thought about another thing. I hope Suzuki ends up being the bottom if so, because it would be his first time with a guy as a bottom. That would ease my disappointment somewhat and make up for what happened. But that’s just IF switches won’t happen. If switching could happen, that is the best thing because switches are not as common as the usual top x bottom. It would be lovely for both of them to compromise their ass for each other, I feel like that would be the best decision because both of them want to top. Maybe one of them could top on certain days, then switch.

And yeah, they weren’t ready to be in a relationship with each other because they failed to compromise something that could happen with discussion and easing each other’s insecurities or anxiety about bottoming. Honestly? Suzuki sleeping with Norman is easier for him because it’s like sticking it inside a woman, not that it is a woman position but it’s like the typical sex roles portrayed.

He has always been a straight guy, like you said. So it’s easier for him to stick it inside than be railed. That’s why I think if switches can’t happen, him bottoming for Sugiki would make up for the ‘first time with a guy’ situation. Because it would be seen as something Suzuki was afraid to do, but gave it up for Sugiki only. Much more meaningful but that’s just an opinion.

Yes, you’re right — the “another guy” Suzuki refers to is Norman. When Suzuki says, “Sugiki completely changed my identity these last few months, I never imagined I’d get all passionate and horny over another guy,” he’s admitting that Sugiki made him realize a side of himself he never thought existed. Instead of facing those feelings, he projects them onto Norman as a way to test or escape what Sugiki awakened in him.

So yes, while both of them are clearly trying to distract themselves (Sugiki with others, Suzuki with Norman), the difference is in the emotional weight. Sugiki’s escapism feels habitual, something he already did before Suzuki, while Suzuki’s feels like denial, an act of rebellion against his own vulnerability.

In short, that scene isn’t just about sex; it’s about Suzuki trying to reclaim control over his identity after losing it to Sugiki. Narratively, it’s understandable that it feels wrong or hollow because it’s meant to. It reflects Suzuki’s confusion and avoidance rather than any true resolution.

Eyaa, this is something I’m honestly not sure we’ll ever get a clear answer to. The last translation update was around 2023, and it’s been quiet ever since, so there’s no telling if it’ll ever be picked up again. If it does, though, there’s a chance that the live-action adaptation might take a slightly different direction or add new elements that weren’t in the manga.

Since this is a *shounen ai* series, I’m not really expecting much focus on who’s the top or bottom. That aspect is usually left vague in this genre because the main focus tends to be on emotional tension, character development, and subtle relationship dynamics rather than explicit romantic roles. Still, it would be interesting to see how the live-action interprets their chemistry and whether it hints at those dynamics more clearly.

But for now, all we can do is wait and see—maybe we’ll get lucky and someone will decide to continue translating it. You never really know with series like this; sometimes they surprise you when you least expect it.

Thank you so much for the detailed explanation. For that same sentence, I also thought Suzuki could be referring to Sugiki when he says “another guy” cause that would make sense too. Norman makes sense too.

Yeah, so really rather than the sex itself, I think Suzuki’s act of doing it so casually and easily is what caught me off guard.

This is shounen ai? It seems in between, the smut isn’t explicit but it’s kinda there. No genitalia showing though so yeah it counts. Last translation in 2023? Wow. Fuck me.

Maybe I’m just being a bit too much and whiny over this but it’s really important (for me anyways, I don’t speak for all) that the live action does not include this bit. They could do even better by not letting that tension and build up go to waste.

You’re amazing with the detailed responses, thank you! Do you write perhaps?

Y'all keep dropping realistic realistic I don't even understand because sleeping with another guy because you're horny over a different guy altogether screams zoro thought process olympics

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WAIT HUH, realistic realistic?

And when I was asking who Suzuki was referring to as the “another guy”, I thought it was either Sugiki or Norman. But he mentioned “Passionate” and horny so I assumed it could be Suzuki, there is no way he is passionate over Norman I HOPE RHW FUCK NOT