I had to come back just to give a few extra thoughts to the chapter that pissed everyone off and before.
This isn’t a review now, this is for myself primarily so that I can remember to not reread this if it catches my eye again.
—————- ———— So before chapter 46, there is no denying that the bottom does not want to admit he loves the top. Yes it’s infuriating but it’s not the worst - it just makes sense for the story. It’s like, you can’t even get mad because he’s doing this completely in denial. It does irk a little when they’re talking bout him being “impotent” in that one chapter becuz he couldn’t get it up until then, and he was fucking the hyung. He almost calls out the tops name, and that makes hyung feel “bad” but not bad enough I guess because then there’s chapter 46 - by then the emotions are more charged there from the couple.
By now, he’s a wreck assuming the worst. He’s clearly in love with the top and on a mind-bend right now. He searches for some comforting words/actions from the hyung who’s there to take care of him for the time being, and that’s where the issues take place.
1. He’s in love and yet he sleeps with the hyung - he said he felt shame, but he needed the “warmth” he felt from the top and he searched for it in someone else. KNOWING it was someone else and it dragged him back down even as he called the tops name. 2. Again, what he’s looking for is COMFORT and the hyung is selfish in this case. He uses physical means to comfort him, which in itself is whack but ok that’s what’s worked for the bottom I suppose - UNTIL THE CALL. The call was where you just have to step back and think really - if he would’ve stopped to answer than that would’ve made a world of a difference, BUT HE DIDNT. you can’t even say he didn’t know, he just did it on purpose to continue “comforting” the bottom. Thats where the anger arises, cuz just ONE FUCKING DAY EVEN A FEW HOURS if the bottom had held maybe a tiny bit or the hyung hadn’t had been so bent on sleeping with the bottom, then it wouldn’t have been so fucking infurating.
The worst part is - IT WASNT CHEATING? It’s just really fucking pissing everyone off cuz it felt like it. They don’t discuss it either, there’s really nothing that comes out of it which then brings up the anger again cuz WHAT WAS THE POINT? He should’ve tapped out or some shit and it would’ve had the same fcking effect but whatever.
The smut between the leads was hot afterwards tho and really with the story setting it’s not all too surprising chapter 46 happened tbh. This is why I don’t like reading anything with a mafia/yakuza setting where they’re directly involved like ever. It’s an excuse for the most vile, messiest plot lines.
I had to come back just to give a few extra thoughts to the chapter that pissed everyone off and before.
This isn’t a review now, this is for myself primarily so that I can remember to not reread this if it catches my eye again.
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So before chapter 46, there is no denying that the bottom does not want to admit he loves the top. Yes it’s infuriating but it’s not the worst - it just makes sense for the story. It’s like, you can’t even get mad because he’s doing this completely in denial. It does irk a little when they’re talking bout him being “impotent” in that one chapter becuz he couldn’t get it up until then, and he was fucking the hyung. He almost calls out the tops name, and that makes hyung feel “bad” but not bad enough I guess because then there’s chapter 46 - by then the emotions are more charged there from the couple.
By now, he’s a wreck assuming the worst.
He’s clearly in love with the top and on a mind-bend right now.
He searches for some comforting words/actions from the hyung who’s there to take care of him for the time being, and that’s where the issues take place.
1. He’s in love and yet he sleeps with the hyung - he said he felt shame, but he needed the “warmth” he felt from the top and he searched for it in someone else. KNOWING it was someone else and it dragged him back down even as he called the tops name.
2. Again, what he’s looking for is COMFORT and the hyung is selfish in this case. He uses physical means to comfort him, which in itself is whack but ok that’s what’s worked for the bottom I suppose - UNTIL THE CALL.
The call was where you just have to step back and think really - if he would’ve stopped to answer than that would’ve made a world of a difference, BUT HE DIDNT.
you can’t even say he didn’t know, he just did it on purpose to continue “comforting” the bottom.
Thats where the anger arises, cuz just ONE FUCKING DAY EVEN A FEW HOURS if the bottom had held maybe a tiny bit or the hyung hadn’t had been so bent on sleeping with the bottom, then it wouldn’t have been so fucking infurating.
The worst part is - IT WASNT CHEATING? It’s just really fucking pissing everyone off cuz it felt like it. They don’t discuss it either, there’s really nothing that comes out of it which then brings up the anger again cuz WHAT WAS THE POINT? He should’ve tapped out or some shit and it would’ve had the same fcking effect but whatever.
The smut between the leads was hot afterwards tho and really with the story setting it’s not all too surprising chapter 46 happened tbh. This is why I don’t like reading anything with a mafia/yakuza setting where they’re directly involved like ever.
It’s an excuse for the most vile, messiest plot lines.