Did you ever like the Asahi in the beginning? Feelings aren’t linear - it really isn’t weird that you fell out of love with Asahi, it happens a lot unfortunately. But it can also happen the other way around, you can also fall in love with the same person twice. But does he actually have a plan on how you two could work this out? And do you actually want to work this out? It’s okay to leave good relationships because you don’t love the other person, being honest about this means you respect them fully.
Taking into account that you don’t want to be alone, you need to realize that leaving Asahi means that you’ll almost definitely be alone, since the Baal guy probably won’t get into a relationship with you as he’s still dealing with his ex.
But hey being alone doesn’t mean you’ll be lonely - try to spend time with friends or ppl you like. I wish you the best of luck dealing with this.
I loved my Asahi. But there wasn’t the chemistry in intercourse. Also when I loved him he took too many things for granted, things he’s told me he wishes he could go back and take back. But they shaped how I can’t really devote myself to him like before. And my Baal well, he gets mad when I don’t answer. Gets mad when I try to leave. But I was sick for days and he didn’t even write me. He’s got his own things that day but still. Not even a freaking how are you. And I told him: I’m sick. I like it when people take care of me when I’m sick. And supposedly we’re going on a date tomorrow? Like. I know what would come after the date. And I’m not in the mood
I am with an Asahi and like a Baal, I tried to break up with the asahi telling him that I don’t know if I love him and he said we could work it together. And the Baal has his own problems with an ex too. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to be alone.