I can't even recall how many times i re-read this already, but i still cry and love phil's character more and more, with every re-read i do.
I sympathize so much on how detached she is, while it's admirable that she's so independent, it's actually sad when u realized that she's independent because all the adult around her failed her, except for her 2nd nanny (NOT THE OME WITH BACKACHES OKAY?!! FUCK THAT OLD WOMAN!).
She was just a child :)) she's not a returner, she doesn't remember her past life, she didn't get isekai'd, she's just a normal unfortunate child. She yearns for parental love, she yearns to have a dependable family and people by her side, she wants to be protected,,, just like a normal human being. But she have to endure everything alone, throw away her life and build a facade to save herself from everything, from everyone.
The fact that all her life, she keeps receiving death threats? It's frustrating cuz she doesn't deserve that. If she wasn't forced into this kind of situation, she would've been a very loveable, sweet, and happy person... But because of all the traumas she experienced, she becomes detached with everything... As her coping mechanism, because the world is against her... When she didn't even do anything to it.
But still, even tho she's having a hard time, she never give up, no matter how challenging it is—she would rather fight in a way she can, than to be defeated and faced an unjust consequences. While she's not powerful and you might think she's helpless, the fact that SHE'S AWARE of all her weakness, acknowledge her shortcomings, and always calm and careful? That's already an admirable strength. I love her so much, i just want her to live a life wherein she doesn't have to worry about being flawed, she doesn't have to worry about dying in a very unfair way, i just want her to be happy... I'm not even that old yet, but i feel like she's my child... I love Phil so much :(((
I can't even recall how many times i re-read this already, but i still cry and love phil's character more and more, with every re-read i do.
I sympathize so much on how detached she is, while it's admirable that she's so independent, it's actually sad when u realized that she's independent because all the adult around her failed her, except for her 2nd nanny (NOT THE OME WITH BACKACHES OKAY?!! FUCK THAT OLD WOMAN!).
She was just a child :)) she's not a returner, she doesn't remember her past life, she didn't get isekai'd, she's just a normal unfortunate child. She yearns for parental love, she yearns to have a dependable family and people by her side, she wants to be protected,,, just like a normal human being. But she have to endure everything alone, throw away her life and build a facade to save herself from everything, from everyone.
The fact that all her life, she keeps receiving death threats? It's frustrating cuz she doesn't deserve that. If she wasn't forced into this kind of situation, she would've been a very loveable, sweet, and happy person... But because of all the traumas she experienced, she becomes detached with everything... As her coping mechanism, because the world is against her... When she didn't even do anything to it.
But still, even tho she's having a hard time, she never give up, no matter how challenging it is—she would rather fight in a way she can, than to be defeated and faced an unjust consequences. While she's not powerful and you might think she's helpless, the fact that SHE'S AWARE of all her weakness, acknowledge her shortcomings, and always calm and careful? That's already an admirable strength. I love her so much, i just want her to live a life wherein she doesn't have to worry about being flawed, she doesn't have to worry about dying in a very unfair way, i just want her to be happy... I'm not even that old yet, but i feel like she's my child... I love Phil so much :(((